Peaceful day.

omg. i just want a peaceful day with nth to obstrut me at all. Nth.

todae so make me treasure the word 'peace' cos i literally had none todae. firstly, i tot i lost my hist book and was abit worried as i cant seem to find it anywhr.
secondly, i was also abit frustrated tt i cant go to SMU cos i REALLY really wanna go there. and its not becos most of my frens are there u noe. Its really nt becos of that. Its pure interest. I would have been happy too if all my frens are not in smu and im the only one.
But in the end, Cheryl save the day as samantha said tt cheryl wants CGH. and im like really? !
wah. the impossible man. thanks cheryl. and sorry lf...

and so the whole duration of lunch time ive been going ard 2nd floor. trying to locate the keys for 0206 and finding mdm sahriana. i feel so pek cek lorh. and my two frens probably felt the same too. its like running aimlessly and can't finding what u want. omg. i hate my carelessness. i cant imagine a whole yr worth of notes lost - gone wif the hist book.
but luckily. i called mrcuthbert and helped me by giving me the keys. yay. sometimes, having the no. of the teachers do help... lol.

and i wun call him monster anymore cos during trg todae he actually did sth nice for me n eyen. i like never expected it la. But den it can be also argued tt its his duty to submit 2 names ... so nth tt "nice" also. but the thing make me feel abit happy....
erm. but the not so nice part was when coach and he had abit of "quarrel". its not really quarrelling la but den their tone nt very nice. and i feel intimidated by them. but then.... on some things i do agree wif him la.
actually, to just summarise everything, i think she just dont have time for our sch (despite the fact tt we're her first contract sch).
Haiz. why always like that? its really nt fair lorh...
and ps u make it worse can.... blahhhhh.
(hmm. no la. dun take it to heart.)

Right. Hope tmr will be a smooth day ahead. and it will be a bonus if its fun-fiilling. i love my frens who make me smile, laugh and feel happy.

and i guess being wif ppl is the only way for me to feel better in sch -when the lessons get boring or when the stress starts piling in.
but being wif the wrong ppl can make me feel worse at times.

...
actually on sunday night rite, i was looking forward to this week as i felt that it will be a fun one.
but now, i dun tink so leh. and i dun tink its only becos physics test is on friday. haha.
arh shit.
wed.thurs. fri gonna be hectic days.

i cant wait for friday night!
Nice nice nice food!

lalaalala.


signing off -

I feel so depressed now.
and the worse is that i dun noe wad im depressing for.

....

And the physics test is postpone to friday. i shld be like jovi and min feeling happy abt it rite? but weirdly... i dun feel the happiness.

And its like SO WEIRD LORH.

No test leh! Can sleep earlier somemore.

and im depress?
wth.

im weird.................

blah. anw. gonna watch tv now. byee.


oh btw. todae is such drama -roller coaster.

im supposingly to study now. but feeling so sian... so decide to blog again.

Kat is so funny. I still remember we use to chat on MSN during lower sec and she really make me laugh out loud. haahaha. haiz..... those are the days. zzzz`

and her chinese character REN is so big. Hahahaha.
and guess wad. its so at the right time to talk to her.....
Monster send me another msg.
Omg. hes so irritatingla. I dun want to recive any sms frm him anymore.
So irritating.
Nvm. must




LOLX. so huge rite. kat's de. hahaha.

YAY free weekend. =)
Chilling at home... tho stil nid to study la. hmph.
i can sleep all i want man. so shuang. Heh.
and doing things that i like . lalala.

But can get quite easily bored.... boo. looking forward to the next weekend when there is no Maths, Hist, Geog test on monday. and Physics on tuesday.

arugh.
so irritating...


LOl. ok back to studying.
NItex~

I hope this will be my last post on air rifle. i so dun wanna wish to talk abt it ... it brings back the arugggh feeling (lol. jovitaa....). But den. i feel that i nid to blog it. to sort out my own feelings...

firstly, im really thankful to the ppl hu tagged and told me tt its okay.... ur taggie or words do make a difference. at least i feel that thr is somebody who cares or noe how i feel.

second. i noe its just something... actually its not even a BIG competition... jus an ntu shoot or nus i forgot. but i cant help but feel sad abt it.
and somehow, i feel tt this feeling stemmed from me caring too much. i cared too much. i realised that most of the probs tt i told ppl, they will just say tt im thinking/caring too mcuh.
yea, maybe its time for me to NOT care so much anymore...
But... its a difficult thing for me to do... i tink im just naturally born being like that. how do u change so easily...........

thirdly.
its just a setback. im sure everbody has it. and this is mine.
[ haiz. but why must mine invovle so many ppl?]

forth.
i cant help but feel that its my fault. i mean.... i think majority of the ppl in my shoes would blame themselves too. the nature of teamsport. haiz.

fifth.
wad coach and the mr anthony guy (iforgothissurname) said was just a nice way or summing everything up and motivating us.
But wad monster said was just an ugly version of it.... however ugly, its the most truthful.

sixth.
i really dun want the prize.
can u imagine how strong the prize can be in reminding me of ytd?
Very.
and i really really dun want it. its not an ego thing or wad ... its just. undeservingly not mine. i will just feel bad and lousy having it.
and worse of all is having a prize prsentation.
NO DOUBT he would want to have a sch presentation. Oh man. that's the worse thing.
normally when u take a prize in front of so many people, you should be proud abt it rite?
Arughhhz. and wad am i suppose to do? put up a glum face to the principal and say hey, i dun want the prize?
Ha...
Aiya. but there's still a chance tt we wun be having the presentation in school. i HOPE so. and its not becos im ashamed of myself (arugh yes i am.) but to a large extent, its becos i dun deserve sharing the honour with them. They are sooo goood.
I really hope that one day, they will venture out to national games and do us singaporean proud.

Maybe one day, we do not nid to rely on foreign talents anymore. im sure dey can do it. and im looking forward to seeing them winning sth for sg.....

Eh im serious. they are really very good.

and the last person tt i wanna c on earth now is monster.
i dun wan to see his face.

Monster and The Prize are rubbing salt on my wound.

OK. ENOUGH ABT COMPETITION. I DUN WANT TO TALK ABT AIR RIFLE ON MY BLOG ANYMORE.



-the end-

i am so lousy i dun deserve it at all.

Omg.. in the end my attitude suck too.

I AM SO LOUSY.

They are the creme da la creme. They were the ones who helped out. and me? i pulled it all downnnnnnn.

Take wad prize man.

Its not mine...

i can complain all i want abt monster, but in the end i've a bad attitude that does nt reflect sportmanship.

effort? wad effort.

i can list down a whole lot of excuses, the heartbeats. the food (yea, it do affect) and my beloved rifle 2 went to junjie.....

But.
Still.

Haiz...

Shity lousy scores. arughhhhhhhhz.

i tot i was okay afta hearing the encouragement frm coaches. but den seeing the sms abt the prize thingy jus make me feel so.... haiz. why? can i dun go. hope so.

Unappreciative

i dunoe man. its either i dun appreciate the efforts tt ppl is forcing on me, or i feel unappreciated by ppl.

food for thought:
how many friends do you really have whom u can rely, and
tell them things that are bothering you?

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todae sucks like hell lah. firstly, im totally pissed by the sms (lets just call him monster. regular readers shld noe who i mean) monster send me. He's ..............
haha
INDESCRIBABLE.

I HATE HIM TO PIECES. I HATE HIM.

Arughhhhhhhhz. Words can't describe how much i hated him.

His own attitude sucks also la k. I dun think he even haf the position to say that kat is rude.

Monster dun care our academic results. HE DUN AT ALL.
ME HAVING 3 FREAKING COMMON TESTS ON MON IS NTH TO HIM AT ALL.

yea man. he can think wadever he want abt me. fortunately, i've learnt to stand up for this type of things. im not going to be forced to go to the sunday shoot when i feel so busy. and actually, i hate to feel stress on sundays. i dun even like to rush my hw on that day, and he want me to spend my whole morning, whole afternoon, and evening on that shooot n rush tt 3 tests at night? no way.

Actually.... im not really that ji dong la. i jus feel pissed off by this attitude. - Last minute attitude and when i told him of my predicament on monday he was like looking away. like wth? i was waiting to c wad he say u noe. and although i was dead unwilling to shoot on sun, at least i still ask in a good way rite. If really cannot, i also will have no choice but to go wad.

Anyway... in the end. He still let me. i was quite thankful for that.
But the whole attitude thingy... just.... sucks.

but becos of that, i've to go for the competition tmr. Shit shit shit. e sighting tt i did todae was oaky... but. its stressful man.the other 2 teamates are top top top shoooters. haiya but. i also nt sure whether i confirmed down tmr. if coach suddenly change her mind, what can i do?


NOooooooooooooo.
THAT MEANS TT I'VE TO GO ON SUN.

noooooooooooooo


Haiz. Stupid things are always bothering me.

i just want a free and empty weekend and the whole thing to end quickly.

i just want my space
=(

Da. Celebrations!

Heh.

afta the concert ends... we walked to the int. chatted and waiting for jovi to come.... heard many interesting 'inside' news frm her. Lol. really, nvr judge ppl by their cover.

After that, we went to the mac ...
and started jovi photo craze.



jovita and her ice-cream


jovita and min


jovi & flo.

ya den shortly, midnight came and dey sang b'dae song to me!Hahaahhaa. thanks guys. =)

but we couldn't stay long.... cos the place is closing.
den min's dad came and fetch us.... i guess i reach home ard 1 ba.

The following afternoon, went out wif yp pai and jen! ehh so long nvr go out liao... had fun hanging out wif them =) and jen n yp kept poking fun at one another. LOl`.
we went to pastamania for lunch... before going to watch Pink Panther. =The movie is damn funny sia!!!! must watch. LOL

afta tt. jen said she's still hungry (as usual.) so we went down to da basement.... buy takopachi. ate more at mosburger... and finally to breadtalk. All's jen's food ok. hahahahaa.
we manage to take some photos ....
except jenifer... si dou bu rang wo pai




da photoframe! =)



yp & me



Lastly, i wanna say a BIG Thank You to everybody who wishes me or gave me presents!

Thanks.

my sixteenth birthday was surprisingly different and fun.

:)

Ok... here are the photos at smash'd.
Basically, this post will be FULL OF PHOTOS. Hahahahaa.

On the way to downtown east....


















inside the concert...



PRETTY GALS!






=)



The performers zi dong come wan... LOl


Flo & Jewel



action-ing... lol





hahaha ok .this e end of smash photos.

Still got more!!!

Eh. Finally completed the alive website....
phewww. so tiring..

and I finally made my IC le.
the long and overdue one.

And i think i'm the only person who made IC until want to puke blood ...

The total no. of times which i went to ICA - four (just to make 1ic)
and the ppl like so irritating lorh. i went on friday after trg to do.... took damn long to tell a short story of why i could not make my ic last yr..and the person seems to not know what is eczema and KEEP ON REPEATING HER QNS. Its either she dun understand what im talking abt or she thought im too stupid to noe what she is asking .... and i tink i repeated my ans for at least 4 times to her before she referred me to the officers at the interview room.
i thought the officers were scary but in the end no la. They are just the same as the the woman >.< I told them that i've already given the necessary information the previous time i came... but they kept saying that my data is not in. Ok loh... i cant argue wif them also. BUT U NOE WAD. when i went on saturday with my mother in the morning.... the information which i said was indeed there!!
PENG sia... wasted so much of my time.

arh anw. went to !smash'd jus now. there's so much stuffs to blog abt... will do it later :))

and on an unrelavant note,


I Turn SIXTEEN Today~ !

=)

Finally. i can sleep w/o feeling guilty.

and my eyes kinda feel weird now cos i just read somebody's blog which colour is so bright i almost go blind. but i still read it ok. see. ...

anyway, i really HATE mon- thurs. its a vicious cycle that will never ends. at least... that's what i c now.. im so sianed of all the tests already. im tired frm studying.... that kind of feeling where u feel ur brain is too tired to remember any more facts...
Haizz.
ss test was a goner and chem test was stupidly careless. omg.. i feel so stupid for these 2 tests. ss test was sudden confusion... (my factors initially was right. but den i tot was wrong. arughhh) and chem was stupidly careless. omg. how stupid can i be.
i wonder how come i nvr hear any of my seniors complaining abt tests. for us, a week having 3/4 tests seems like a norm now. and i seriously cant stand juniors who are so damn noisy. or juniors who are acting coool or complaining abt their tests when its like nth compare to us. anyway, i have these sudden thought cos of wad i saw and experienced ytd. in short, irritating.

oh yes. Today is so hot. im perspiring like crazy... when im not even doing any physical exercise. lol. supposingly to go out wif jiemin to watch movie but all e timing like so out wan... so in the end went to join hh dey all. hahaa... as usual went mac and chat. Hl actions very funny! LOl` we went out till 7+ and when i reached home. Wahhhhhh...

A thick pile of clothes piling in the living room.

Omg. they bought so much stuffs in BANGKOK and seriously, the place is a shopaholic paradise!

Heh. my mom bought me some clothes and bags :))) she said its for my bdae presents. lol. so far in total, i got 5 clothes, 2 bags ,1 softtoy tt can keep cds , 3 earrings and 1 sandals!!! All belong to me w/o having to move a toe! Whahaahhaa

but u see like that like very gd rite. NO LO!!!!

U noe how many earrings my mom and sis (mostly my sis la) bought ??!!!

40 + pairs! Have u ever bought so much in one of ur shopping spree? And the BEST - you know how much per pair cost??? A freaking sg $0.30 !!!!

and all them are so nice... like those tt u will see in fareast and orchard road. So cheap.... sg retailers cheat our money man. dey earn until siao!

and of all 40+ ... i only get 3 =(
cos 3/4 of them are all my sis's wan... haiz.
i cant stand it man. my sister is like damn shuang loh... afta she completed her Alevel's... she has been going holiday-ing non-stop. Dec - went wif her friends to malaysia. Jan- went to TAIWAN wif her frens again. Feb- Go Bangkok wif my mom and aunt and cuzins.

erhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. (im whining~ )
haiz. i feel so shitty man. i seriously want to go for a holiday and recharge myself. i really really want. its like a desire to escape from my everyday life.

Arughhhz.

aiya anyway, this is like the first time im really happy that my mom came back=D .... cos i no nid to anymore housework. wash this wash that, so tiring ok. esp the past few days when we have so much hw and tests.
i feel like dropping dead on my bed yesterdae.
-__ -


arhh ok. im suppose to feel happy now =) the weekends are coming! and they do seem promisingly fun. Heh.

this's like a long entry. lol.
cyaaaaa. and l'smashed! Lets take photos on that day ;) wink wink*

its the season again =)

Happy Valentine's Day!


but instead of it, i tink its more of a celebration of friends. Hahaa
Thanks to all who contributed to my wonderful goodiesbag ! =p
and i must say, this is the day where i get to receive the most no. of chocolates... though im rather slow at finishing them. heh.... once it took me 3 months to finish some chocs. and no, its not becos they are big or wad.... its rather tt i keep forgeting they are in the fridge. LOl.

btw, got back results ytd. yAy! turns out, its just a false alarm =)
i guess there's probably only 4 hu got b3 ba... and im happy tt the majority of my friends got good results too. hahaha.

Hmmm.
this week gonna be a hectic week again. i've so much things to do. and thr's common test tmr and thurs. sian.... im starting to hate thursday. Lol.



signing off

Right, time to recover from my momentary shock.

i was like really.... HUH?!
but yah... i leave it to tmr to see how i feel.
hoepfully, all my good friends will be grinning widely~ =D

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
and yes, my mom and sis flew to bangkok yesterdae le. so now.. only left me bro and dad. my dad was asking us happily yesterdae what we want to eat. so yea, u can guess tt my dad dun mind eating outside food. phew`. but its not like i will cook for them la... none of them will want to eat anyway. honestly, i hvn really cook ever since we stopped homec... hahaahaa. and among the 3 siblings, my brother beat both his sisters hands down in cooking. LOL. serious, and hey its not tt we are extremely lousy, its just tt he's rather weirdly good as a guy his age. fifteen btw.
Haiz, but mom not at home also means tt ive to do more things - like wash clothes. but nahz.... im not going to wash like wad my mom did. chances are, i will just throw 3/4 of them in the washing machine.
and kat, now i really understand how u feel. lol
- - - - - - - - -
Friday was x-country. ok lorh... but it gets pretty boring when we have nth to do. afta that, went to watch inotstupid2. arhhhhhhhhhhhhh. that was one of the most touching movie tt i watch and i agree wif louis. its quite xinku cos while u're crying e next scene dey will make u laugh... and wad hh say is also true... ur tears hvn dry and u will start crying again. wah man. i tink the part whr i teared the most was when the younger bro told his parents tt he steal to pay for his dad's time to watch his performance .... and when joshua dad died. :(((
after the show, we went to lifang house to bai nian. and den everybody revert back to normal and start laughing again. haha.

tt day was also results day. hrd frm my seniors tt many ppl cried. but overall, the sch results did improve ...
- - - ----- - - - -
saturday. went out to buy stuffs and some v-day prezzies for friends =) and while walking ard, junhui suddenly appeared infront of me! LOl. i tink i must be looking very blur at tt time... but anw, hope u all have a fun time ytd =)
--------- ------
sunday. todae. all thanks to my brother i only have brunch now. he and his stupid games. suppose its his turn to buy food.... but i would have died frm hunger if i waited for him. =/

and as usual.... rushing all the homework todae.

gotta go now. cya tmr ~~

OMG.

TEN B3 IN THE LEVEL.

OMGOSH...

We broke temasek record

i cant resist but to only say tt our batch suck. totally.

and im very paranoid now cos i still do not noe how much i get.
shld have went back yesterdae...

but den again. its either i smile or being real sad on mon.
haiz.

good luck everybody. i really hope the whole of our class can do well.
but it seems tt all the B3s are frm zls class.
=(

I MISS ZHONG LAO SHI. CAN SHE COME BACK N GIVE US OUR RESULTS ON MON.
CAN?

Im like super, duper tired now....

i dun like pe la. i tink its not fun anymore. and i dun like thursdaysss. thursdayss are stress-ed lessons days.
or maybe its just coincidence tt chers just love to choose this day to do real work todae.

and i really cant stand the mosquitoe bites on my leg anymore. its so......... arughhhhhhhhhhh. So BIG and RED and ITCHy. and worse - i dunoe when i got it. its not the bites tt i blogged few days ago lehh. its a new one. and its go huge....!

anyway. yesterdae.... would be a wonderful day if not tt i've to stay up and study physics ct. i feel so stupid loh. so many things tt i read did nt come out...
but anyway again, i tink yesterdae was a nice gathering. sam, vicki, kel, ps, all came! its nice to crap ard with them again... and ashley. mann, its only ytd when i c her again den i suddnely rmb all the happy and fun stuffs tt we did last 2 yrs. And i miss my seniors! i miss ashley! Like so long never talk to her since ytd rite?
LOl, one of the most common thing we did ytd is to blast soh.... dey like keep scolding him for nt awarding them appropriate pts for cca and awards. and i totally agree lorh, how can ppl who did nt go for most of the trgs haf the same grade as those who slogged out hard, and rep e sch? Weird sia*... oh yes. im kinda scared of Popeye in terminal one already.... went there for 3 times in 1 day. I had enough eating there ... lol

afta sch todae, stayed back to finish up compo.afta tt went out wif hh lf and louis.... at first we wanted to go mac, but den when we look in. wah. so many temasekinas sia.... so we changed to kfc. lol. as usual, chat n chat but this wk like hvn relaxed for so long. ahhh.

i miss life.
i feel so lifeless - literally.
i needdddd my sleep.



nitez`

The week has only started for 2 days and im TIRED LIKE ZOMBIE la.

grrrr. i absolutely can't stand sleepiness when im restricted from sleeping. i dunoe abt u all... but i find it damn difficult. monday,after the whole day, i really cant take it and slept for a while during smt.. and somemore im like in front .... =/
eh. i dun like the fourth level classroom (except during maths lessons =) . i still prefer our homeroom for smt. firstly, its so hot. secondly, the environment only makes ppl drowsy. not condusive for learning at all. i cant remember any serious work tt i did during smt so far.
anyway, i still went for trg. it was okay... kinda feel tt coach is getting kinder and kinder to us. LOl. and the bunch of ar frens are funny too. jj, cs n lw are like super clever la. ask them anyth confirm can wan. gabriel also not bad la... but i tink hes more skilled at bullying ppl... LOl.

oh yes. sth funny happen yesterdae..
ALL BECOS OF JIEMIN LORHHH.
(juskiddingk)
for starters, the 3 of us actaully have a routine for opening locker. me in the morning, jovi durin recess, min afta sch. den ytd while putting in the books afta sch... i also dun really noe what happen la. but i notice the whole time while jiemin was putting in the books, the guy beside her keep looking at our side, and the 2 padlocks, 1 infront of min, and 1 behind her. and well, if im jiemin i will also take the nearest one... which is infront of her. Lol... afta we finish, the guy still looking at us. frm of his expression, i can sumhow tell tt he's apprehensive of the lock... but i dun really think so la, so we heck care him.
Den after smt, walking for hcl lesson i received an unknown sms saying tt his lock and my lock has been swopped. immediately, it remind me of tt sec3 psl guy. but den im quite surprise how he noe my no. so i jus sms back lorh.... and he's like die die dun wan to say la. anw, by that time im already at the door of our classroom and i want to settle it fast so i just call the person... met him at the locker thr and switch. thinking back at it, i really find it damn funny sia...
and yes, jovi told me wad's the person name le. =/

Today .... damn tired also. especially during assembly. i tink i slept alittle haha. den afta tt quickly rush to the ar noticeboard to test out e key tt soh gaf me todae. he say until quite serious. what e key must always be with u, cannot give anybody... dots larh. anw, lucky i dint ask kat to help me put up the notice ... cos when we were thr, mr soh was also outside. =/

afta tt, me n kat were discussing what to do. HAIZ. Ash is flying off tmr. i still thot is thursday man... sian. tt means tmr im gonna be super busy. and i can forget abt sleeping unless i can really study at the airport. nvm, must make good use of pengsoon and kel tmr. hahahaha.
yah so in the end, i went for my piano lesson and kel meet kat first. dey very funny .. spend so long at the gift shop. and me and kel were like very buay tahan wif kat ... she pick out so much presents ok, and i was like telling her tt ashley is not going away FOREVER. LOLx. and in the end.. we compromised wif 2 gifts. lol.
went to tm basement afta tt to eat... chatted abit wif kel abt O's results. i tink i will be very nervous la if im him. take back everything man. we only taking back chinese....
and afta tt, we started smsing pengsoon and vicki. vicki nvr reply, not fun wan. but ahsoon arh... can u seriously spot anything funny in the sms????! LOL. we're like laughing until peng.. hahahaa

Ok anw. hope can talk to u later online. but in case if i dint see you....
ashley wants to tell u that:

[===> SoB..ThE NexT TimE I'll SeE hUBba wOULd bE 24th oF JuNE!!! WaiLS.. says:
wahhhhh
[===> SoB..ThE NexT TimE I'll SeE hUBba wOULd bE 24th oF JuNE!!! WaiLS.. says:
he can make it in time
[===> SoB..ThE NexT TimE I'll SeE hUBba wOULd bE 24th oF JuNE!!! WaiLS.. says:
tell him to take 36
[===> SoB..ThE NexT TimE I'll SeE hUBba wOULd bE 24th oF JuNE!!! WaiLS.. says:
opp his sck bus stop
[===> SoB..ThE NexT TimE I'll SeE hUBba wOULd bE 24th oF JuNE!!! WaiLS.. says:
express bus
[===> SoB..ThE NexT TimE I'll SeE hUBba wOULd bE 24th oF JuNE!!! WaiLS.. says:
tell him
[===> SoB..ThE NexT TimE I'll SeE hUBba wOULd bE 24th oF JuNE!!! WaiLS.. says:
tell him
[===> SoB..ThE NexT TimE I'll SeE hUBba wOULd bE 24th oF JuNE!!! WaiLS.. says:
tell him
[===> SoB..ThE NexT TimE I'll SeE hUBba wOULd bE 24th oF JuNE!!! WaiLS.. says:
tell him

LOLX..

yay. I finally had mahjong sessions with my relatives last night!

Lol. eh i wait very long liao... frm holidays till now. and its even more fun cos i dint lose money... haha. i tink my uncle veh funny.. cos our starting cash is $30 ...den he was lik saying if my mom lose all and i lose all, he can sleep late late todae.. no nid go work.
But den in the end, its he hu only left with $4! HAHAHAA.
my mom won the most.... while i only won $2.50. aiya, not bad lah. can buy a meal for recess. LOl.

sian. why is the weekend so short? i still have so many things left undone. Die..

aniwae, having steamboat later. its actually advance so-called reunion dinner on the 15th. we are eating one week be4 cos my mom and sis going bangkok on sat wif my cuzins. NOT FAIR LORH. dey can go shopping like siao... while i've to stay in sg... in schooool. =(
Haiz.

im feeling kinda blueez and down now...
its supposedly to be over but im still affected.

stupid`

im so tired. I want to sleep!

but im so glad tt weekend is here. ohhh, weekends! xD

i mus promise myself that im going to spend them wisely...

oh yah. frm tmr onwards...i do not nid to wake up so early on sat anymore. lesson change to tues. yaynesss... this equals to no wastage of fridays= longer nite on fridays= more sleeping time on sats but its also= to having to rush alot of things lik siao on mon.
but dun care la. see how. haha...

no more unnecessary stuffs which are wasting my time and doesnt appreciate my efforts.

its sad u noe. so sad that people whom u live with for sixteen yrs do not know u at all. - not just dun noe. is misunderstood. its like shit okay? think wadever u wan to think abt me. but heck, i tell u. its ur lose tt u're thinking of me this way. if u're happy wif ur conceptions of me, im fine with it. so long as u don try to change me. i noe wad i want and most importantly, i noe who i am. and oh, i noe who u are too.

whatever. im going cold over it. and one day, i will be just unfeeling. no thx.

I'm terrorised with bites.

MOSQUITOES AND BLISTERS. arughhhhh.
dey are so irritatingly itchy...

and rite now, cheryl left me hanging in mid air after telling me halfway of how's shes almost get in the way of a bus. OMG. tts like... scary man...

and my dad jus past me a letter frm MOE. and the funny thing is that... ok i type out. u all see,

Congratulations on having ocmpleted your O levels. You are now ready to proceed to the next stage of education at JC, MI or poly ....

and alot of words. SO WORDY. and a list of instructions of application...

siao
HOW I WISH.

but, nahz. and so far, nobody online have recif it. ehhhh. 15th feb take back results. so nt looking forward to it.

Actually right, I don like this whole of feb. So MANY tests. and stuffs. wtheck. im feeling the stress too...

and to be frank, i dont really look forward to my bdaes. since last yr, i never do. its just a normal day lorh... and everyyear so boring de. and hey. belatd prezzie nvm lah. i noe u all will go broke after buying for cheryl n min presents. LOl

todae's surprisingly not tiring. hmm, if sch doesnt start so early in the morning rite, i tink i wld be more productive cos i cud sleep later .... and now for the sake of not feeling sleepy in class (iHatettkindoffeeling. so xinku) i've to sleep early-er. so dots lorh... actually can complete more work wan... but haiz. for the sake of HEALTH.......
all my eyebags coming out already la.

sian. tmr is officially the start of training. and i tink... we are all going to pay ... after resting (in terms of trg ONLY. duties still on) for 1 whole mth. its time for 5 whole months of solid, crazy, tiring training again. arh man. i esp hate it during june. this yr gonna be like the repeat of sec2. the stress of piano exam and demands of trgs... i almost culdn't breathe and felt so overwhelm. and this yr is lke worse? prelims sumore. wah lao... it will be a miracle for myself if i dun breakdown nxt half of e year. and by thinking now ... i feel scared. i dun lik all this feelings... but im doing it all again to myself. i noe ppl can say.. jus give up piano la. stop learning it since u dun haf the time... but now its more of obligations more than anyth else. Passion alone is not the issue anymore...
i mean, after learning and practising it for so many yrs, i cant just give up like tt. and piano is sth tt when u lose touch of it, it will be forever.

arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

-venting of frustrations ended-