i know my results will be bad... but i dint noe it wld be this bad .
nvr in my life hav i gotten this kind of results ... and fail so mani subjects in a go
what da hell happen?
ppl hu tinks tt ppl failed cos dey did not study shld reali jus shut up...
im feelin disappointed.
its realy realy not tt i dint study
i studied. n studied as much as u guys.
comin to tink of it ... i reali feel a surge of anger. anger tt my hard work did not pay off. let me giv an eg. my geog.. i failed by 2 marks. but tts not the point. i spent abt 5 or more hrs that night to study n memorise geog ... n leaving only abt 1 1/2 hr to study hcl. n u noe wad? at the end of the day.. i failed the subject which i spend so much time on.. and i cud get a B3 for the sub tt i practically did not care for. i am not trying to boast how good my chinese is. i m jus feeling angry tt i practically wasted my whole night studying. n not get enuf slp. n failed it. i shld hav jus studied chinese the whole night n probably get an A2. well. at least an A !
wadever.
d7 e8 f9...
i cud jus imagine how beautiful my report book will be on friday.
reali. life sucks manz.
what happen to me... i dunoe.
but i'm feeling lost ...
teachers who felt tt exams could push us n movtivate us to do better... is not the case for me.
in fact, i feel disillusioned.
hardwork tt dun pay off... efforts tt goes down the drain ...
u tink it will motivate me ?? right

haiz.. im jus having mixed feelings
well.. maybe this is wad i deserved.. deserve to get this kind of sucky results ...
i realli dun wan to care animore.
5 months hav passed n i reali hate this year.. too mani things happen tt leave me unhappy sad n lost.
my whole life is jus so messed up
everything is going haywire & i cant do anyth!
its always other ppl who brings misery to me .... not i who brought it to myself.




damnit.
i reali hate them...

uh.. its been quite long since i updated. n i was kinda lazy to blog tho. lol..

the camp at pahang was fun! not as disastrous as i thot it wld be... hahaha. enjoyed myself thr ... - (minus) e disgusting toilet at e campsite - (minus) e bugs and flies at the hostel.
Ok.. the first day was mostly spend on the bus sleeping n looking at the "scenery" ( dey almost look all the same) spend abt 4-5 hrs to reach kota kelanggi which i tink is fast compare to other groups,.. haha. and the first thing we did is to set up e tents at the cave. altho we hav to climb the irritating 39 steps stairs to reach the cave... im stil glad tt we r sleeping there. at least thr aint much insects inside.. lol. n the cave is cold at night..
afta tt did some night cave exploration be4 we get to turn in.

the 2nd day... was just walking n walking n walking in the jungle and climbing over rocks in the caves.. but stil fun la. haha. and the forest... we walked lik to n fro the whole day n by the time we hav to go for our solo drop in the forest at night.. i guess everybody is v.familiar with the ruote and the small rivers that we hav to cross. uh but be4 that. there is stil the abseiling which caused me to suffer much mosquito bites = den it was night time whr we had to thru the scary experience. at first i was stil sceptical. are dey sure tt it wld be safe or wad. esp since tt we aren't suppose to hav our torchlight.. how r we going to trek thru the forest? but in the end.. we stil had to go for it. n manz... there is reali a difference of wad we go thru compare to the other celtic group. we hav to walk thru the forest without light n all of us were so afraid to fall that everybody just held hands n walk sideways. with ocassional trippings over branches logs n crossing the small rivers at night. by the time the guide stop us one by one... i was alreadi tired from all the walkings and all. but it wasnt be4 long tt i feel fear. it was so dark. i couldn't c anith except tall dense tress beside me. n it doesnt help that i keep hearing the leaves moving n some footsteps behind me.. and after the whole thing has ended.. i asked jiemin n she told me tt she heard it too. arugh. coming to think of it. it is realli scary.

finally. its the 3rd day! when we get to go to the hostel! lol... after 2 days of improper washing up we finally had proper toilets and beds. hahaa. n oso we get to play the water activities.. the waterrafting was fun and the water confidence wasnt as scary as we thot . haha. and the guides also let us experience capsizing of the raft. but me jiemin and lifang v.kelian... kena shua(3) by one of the guide. becos we were the last to sit the raft for the mother rapids... the guide bluff us tt we hav to swim down. den we were lik... huh?!!! wad ?! and of cos we dint beliv him at first la... but den he act until so serious and even push us to the water n practice. we all shivering in the cold lor... but we reali practice abit ... until finally the other guides arrive with more rafts. then we were all relieved. that stupid guide. grr... but the rapids is still fun.. lol
and then after lunch we swop and do the flying fox and river crossing..

the 4th day.. nth much happen but the get together dinner was v.nice and we finally get to c the rest of our friends and ev.body started sharing their experience. afta that was the cheering competition and we celtic had a heated fight with the survivor ppl. and finally after many rounds .. we win =D
den later at night after boarding the bus we waited quite long be4 the train came... and yes the camp finally ended..

haizz. i don feel lik going to sch tmr lehhz. i don wan to take back results.. got a very very bad feeling tt i will do damn badly for ev.th. haiz die la... i don even noe how mani subjects i will fail.






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niwae... its a v.long post rite? hahaha. gonna end here le.. Cyaa

hmm. dunoe how to start my post. haha. but i hvn been posting lately...

so ya. on wed.. went to watch Star Wars. its veri nice... mus catch it kae. altho i dunoe the story in front of it... haha
den the last two days... was plain boring. go to sch jus to listen to cher explaining all the papers n how badly our cohort did for practically every paper. haiz. i'm prepared to fail a few subs le.
=(
i dunoe why la. but afta 5 months.. i stil don feel used to everything. yea. just everything. n in 2 more days... we wld be going for our camp... i'm kinda looking forward n not looking forward. LoL...

hmm.
.... thrs lik nth to blog... blehhz
niwae. ive removed some links coz i noe dey dun blog animore.. but dunoe if i left out anibody. haha.
i guess i gota go now..
meeting - to - shop..
buaiiz``

haiya. i dunoe wad to sae..


but im probably one of dee dumbest person on earth.. =/
how could i forgotten to save the links man!! arughh. now its all gonee..
hav to relink u guys by scratch.
damnnit.
niwaes. i don wan to change e blogskin de!! but thrs some probs wif e pics.. n i cant save it..
but this also not bad ryte? hehhz.

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arhhhh. Exams are finally OVER!
phew. finally... no more mugging n cramming..
but im feeling sick now. kinda suffering frm lack of sleep.. n last nite. studied till 1am.. n todae was having headache in e morning. lucky thrs NO more paper... or i dunoe wad im gonna do. (listening not counted in my list! ha..)
but ya noe wad. i dun tink my hardwork is gonna pay. gota feeling im gonna flopped both my sciences n maths. haizzzzzzz`

aniwae..

`im so looking forward to tmr =D
its been shooo long since i watch a movie or go shopping....
reali mus go n de-stress le!
whahaa...





`haiz im so DARN tired..
. signing off now...
[ will come n finish up my blog some day ... =]

i'm half-dead. . .

last nite was a hard time. i studied until i dun wana studied animore.
but well.. this is not new to me. ive since lost my motivation in studies this year. dunoe why. but i jus don feel lik studying animore!!
urghh. i'm forcing myself to concentrate. i've too.
niwaes. i dint expect myself to only blog todae. after this whole week of exams are over.
haizz. so here is it. A maths n elect hist. i was paranoid in the morning cos of Maths. but surprisingly afta i finished the paper.. i don hav an instinct that wld tell me i did v.badly. as in.. i don feel bad. but ... i guess this is jus a false sense of security. confirm did v.badly wan la.. considering my standard. )=
n elect hist. noe what? i was bitterly cursing at the word Provisional Government. damn it. why must it be so freaking long???? n hist is the paper so far that made me feel that my hand is breaking.` thank goodness i stil finished it. but yea like ss... i absolutely have no confidence in the source based. stupid source based. i hate source base!


- today is geog and chi p2. haiz. like wad i said earlier.. i had a hard time concentrating to study this 2 sub. well erm. mayb only 1.. i din't realli study on chinese. n its the 1st time i put so little effort in it. but luckily.. the paper is not that bad. heh =)
but well geog... >.<

can say that i wld expect myself to do not so well. ok. bad. i was stumped at section b for half the time. n for a moment.. i tot i wun be able to finish it. i wasted too much time thinking which esssay i shld do... lol.

but most of the time.. i was practically forcing myself to pick up my pen and write. crap i mean. while writing halfway.. i realli got nth to write le ... haiz. i hate the feeling. ` but ironically... the only essay which im confident of was the chapter that i totally did not study for. LoL. seems like paying attention in class do help huh... haz. but nah. i'm not happy. i totally blank out on everything that i studied.

haiz. but i dun wan to think abt it animore.

i'm totally drained out by the papers todae. so tired. i just hope that exams cud end now. now. now. arughh.

i really nid a break..

one gd ting... no more exams for 2 days.
but.... i tink i'm gonna be so stressed out for the coming 4 exams ....
A maths n elect hist! wich to study first?
n worse.. geog n hcl. mann. so much to memorised!

niwae. todae exam.. i tink ive flopped it totally. my english summary.. haizz. too lil words again.but no time to add le. den ss. ya i did finish BuT... i tink my source base is total crapp. n i tink i wrong alot on tt oso loh.. haiz. hopefully i wun Fail.

these 2 days.. mus realli study le.
if not ... i would suffer mental block lik todae.
it reali sucks to hav tt feeling.
















meanwhile ...
its study time!!!












but i'm sure i wld stil continue to come online n blog. whahaa.
byeee~

haiz... ` i got feeling.







i
i will fail my exams manz...
i dun even noe wad i'm doing this few days.
can't set my mind in the studying mood..
n i'm starting to hate the things* ... around me.
n yes.. i'm disliking some teachers too.





feeling sick now.
niwaes. jus dropping by to blogg.
hopefully by the end of the day. i cud accomplish much.
























i haate hypocrites.
are u one?

todae is total Crap !
i'm super irritated...
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i'm not trying to be difficult or wad...
but I realli don't see the point in bringing it back!
lik.. who the hell wld realli practice it?? unless the person is either damn enthu.. or realli have nothing at all to do.
n for goodness sake. this is EXAM period.
lik its not stressful enuff for us to hav 2 exams in a day.
HURH.
it wld be consider a miracle if i cud hav enuf sleep.. n study well for everything...
and he actualli tink we would hav spare time to do so-called dry-firing?
....
i'm not realli trying to act as a spoilt brat ... but its so damn inconvenient ...
and the pain on my hand is practically kiling me.
i may act as nth is wrong... lik a normal person. but tell u wad. it brings me much inconvenience n i reali hate it on the day when we hav mani books to carry.

haiz`. ani idiot wld be able to see how unwilling i am.
but nevetheless... i still had to bring it home on mon. right. afta the ss exam. mah fan si le... grrrr.

kk. enuff of my rantings . todae... knew the results for the camp grouping. haizz. i'm disappointed. none of my Close frens are in the same group as me.... soemtimes i realli dunoe how the teachers separate us. like... dey reali noe who r ur frens n hu u associate wif. freaky huh? but lik wad cheryl n jovita keep saying. jus go thr n enjoy... heck care anything.
i guess..for the time being we hav to do jus tt. finish the Mid yr den c how ba...
niwaes. tmr stil hav to go back to sch for hist lesson...
gotta go.
byee.

to all ppl who were online ytd..
I'm sorry!!


as i was using the web msn... i dint noe that when i can't sign in.. u ppl acutally received the alert that i was online... n god knows how Many times i tried n tired. LoL. i can imagine the irritating-ness.
sorry arh... not purposely de hor.

anw. todae jus had both eng n chi p1. mannnn. i tell u. its v.draining. having to write 4 types of compos within the 4 hrs in sch. i tot i wld go blank during the chinese compo... but all turns out quite ok la. jus tt its v.ironic. i cud write 3 pages for si han when its only 20 marks n Only 2pages for compo when its worth 70marks.... lol. yea yea. i noe. i can imagine the marks i get by. n the self-esteem crap for english. duno can pass not. hahaa.

i'm so totally not looking forward to tmr.... its a stupid day jus becos of stupid soh. he wan us to bring back full suit for dunoe wad stupid reasons. n afta sch tmr stil got chinese... haiz. ... how am i going to bring it ard? or rather ... how am i going to bring it home? jus realise that the plastic bag ting wif kat aint gonna work. haiya. i dun carele. tmr go down c how den. its so damn wu liao..

n yea. cant sign in to msn again. (web) dey can auto disconnect me sia. tink i can only fully use it nxt wk. which is. .... .... exam period. but come to realise now. .... it may be a gd ting./ n a bad thing too..








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mugged hard ppl*

haiz` i'm feeling so bored now..!
And i can't sign in to MSN .... dunoe wad connection crap...
and Worse. my com was reformatted without my consent.
damnit.!!!! i lost everything. - all my files. songs. pics .... everything
all thx to my brother. wadahell. he claim it was auto.
but i noe thrs more than tt. no such thing as auto reformat.. tt is wad my cuzin told me over n over again.
rite.
but wadever it is. i can't do anith now. nothing.
can't even go online n ask ppl to send me songs
:(
arugh...
niwaes. hav been wanting to post..
this long wkend is kinda gd. a break frm the usual routine.
went out on sat wif jovi jiemin n kat to study at the airport.
hmm. did we reali study?
haha. kind of la.. at least we do sth...
den sun. went to meet yp n pass her her newspaper cutting tingy...
n shunbian go buy my theory book. damn ex. 15+
n i finished most of my homework yesterdae...
but on top of tt.... i dint accomplish much.
it shld be... i dint study much
arughh. i'm gonna freak out during exams manz.
haiz...` this month is so crappy.
exams. camp. den stil mus come back during holidays...
i wan the holidays to come now!
if only i can fast forward 30 days.. LoL
niwae...
feeling damn bored now.
don feel lik studying chem ....
im confused over the lessons taught now. ...
arrrhhhhhhh``````
the songs over the radio now is sucky.
i wan my mp3s back!!!
i wan everything back.