todae ... haiz. dunoe if i shld say its good or bad =X
firstly both of the tests tt was supposed to be todae was postponed to tmr .... stuupid lorh. but nevetheless i'm stil glad its not todae la. mr chooi was quite pissed at our class todae for "forgetting" tt thrs a test but hmm.. i reali dint noe it include chap4? He reali nvr saae loh. haiz.. den later giv out the tests n he patiently + angrily flashed out everybodys mistake on the screen n i mean everybody! he damn patient sia ... halfway thru i oreadi feel like yawning le... n most of them are repeated mistakes. its miraculous tt we cud get back our papers at the last 5 mins n yea guess wad. i failed by 2 marks! arghh...... phy lik tt chem oso lik tt. i die le la.... n i got a feeling that the test on wed wun be easy manz. haix` time for serious study. but i reali studied ....
Then afta sch... whr almost all the ppl left.. we sec3 hcl de stil hav to stay back... HaaIz. but the time passes quite fast so nth much oso la.. den outside sch meet 2 of my seniors. heh. at first sam call me i still blur . duno who isit... he dint change much acutally.. jus more tan lo. n yea did i mention taller? Haa... but he veri waad. ask him his marks don wana sae... instead told me singwei de. whoa.. he not bad sia. got 8 pointers... tt means all a1 rite? lol.. n yep both of them in Tj.. same sch as my sis. but i gav a veri dumb ans back when they ask me what class my sis in.. but the fact is ....... i reaaly dont knoww. cos jc classes so complicating.. n dint bother to ask her too. lol

ARrrh.
got maths test tmr again..
gtg study le..
buaai.

ARhhhhh ---


i'm so restless. ..
the chem book is lying in front of me..
but i jus don haff the mood to study..
haizz.
i'm looking forward to a weekend which i donch nid to study for tests..
lol

hmm. . tmr O level results coming out le.
wonder how well cherrie will do.
hahaa.
but i better see her mood first.


yeaa. jiemin ish online now..
somebody to crap to le.
jus realised tt i'm not e only one who dun feel lik studying..
duhh.



lookin for ward to the march hols =D
2 more weeks...

haish.

i actualli typed quite a long post..

n it jus .... disappear.

waadever la.

i dont wan to type it again

i'm just tired.

veryy tired.

and in the end.. i'm going x-cty >.<

yeah yeah .. i noe its damn stupid..

after spending time thinking which wan i shld do..

IF only the msg was send earlier...

wth.

i hate the way dey giv las min info..

anw.. at least its beta this way.

((i nid a break from testszzz ))

1902
haha. yup its my bdae todae !!
arh. i finally turn fifteen.
time passes sho fast..
but i still dun feel tt i'm fifteen this year... lolx

hmm..as usual i don feel anithing special on my bdae ..jus tt i gotten alot of wishes. hehs. thanks ppl .. n yea thrs oso yp p n jen bdae presents... haha the big box tt uall gav me got alot of things inside wor... i guess ive enuff chocolates for this mth. lol


actualli i got nth much to blog la.. jus blogging for the sake of blogging. i like this week... its fun n passes v.quickly! if only evey week is like that... lol. but thrs x-country nxt week.. i stil can't decide if i shld go for it. or my appointment. or aR... haiz. why mus so mani things happen so co-in-ci-dentally in 1 day? but i guess im most lightly not going for the former...

*

hmm.

i lurve da wkends.

cos i can sleep as much as i wann.

lolx!

nite ~ ~

+ our friendship is soda-licious +

these past few days... many things happen bah.
On sat.. went to ashley hse to bai nian.. at first i feel alil weird cosh i don really noe most of them but afta a while.. begin to noe them le. haha.. e day can be both fun n tiring i guess... reach home kinda late.. but was surprised im not the last one ... lol.
hmm...den its was Valentines day~ hehz. receive quite alot of chocolates.. which kinda reminds me of last year.. whr i gave alot of ppl but this yr cos its a new class.. den all not very familiar so nvr lo..
todae mr soh gave a v.longgg meeting which made me reallly restless n tired. . haix den i kept leaning on kat.. haha. i duno why some simple stuffs can drag so longg. oh well. mayb its not simple la.. but sometimes the meeting is realli slow. lol. hmm.. having camp on march. again. n its gonna be the onlyy oneee in the year lo. hope it wld be better den last yr de...
afta that went to meet cherie.. sho long nvr see her le.. got new injuries again.. hahaaaz. but yea.. she realli told us how hard WORKING is... hehs but i noe she enjoy this better den studying.. O level results gonna out le.. hope all of them cud get gr8 results.. =)




+ i thought i finally understood.. +

heh. todae huh.. not bad!
i finally see jovita new hairstyle!! whahaa.. personally i think its nicer den her previous one but shes lik in self denial lo. lolx
hmm.. school pass kinda fast today... or mayb its becos i pontend cca todae. ahha. but reali la.. i hurt my fingers todae. its reali damn painn can. even now.. haiz i don like it one bit. but what can i do. guess ive to wait till 25th ,,,
uh so in the end went out wif cheryl n jiemin.. but its so lame loh. went to eastpoint most of the shops closed >.< ...
haha anw..went out wif jovi n flo jus now for dinner. dey goood lor. make me wait so long. n i feel so awkward wearing home clothes while dey are stil in uniform..
arh anw afta tt.. we went shopping for jovitas things n im sooooo pleaaased wif the present tti bought for jennifer. whahaaa.. its so cute n jus imagining her reaction can really make me luff out loud. hahaaa..

hmm...i think i got home ard 10 ba. n i finally finished my ss. sianz. i duno isit the subject or the teacher... but i jus dislike it loh. n eng oso.. so boring. haiz.. n i oso can't figure our why teachers owas so coincidnetally gav tests on the same day. a maths and phsyics!!! arrrhh! for physics... its so extra...wan me to study so much jus to gain 2 more marks?? lucky i nvr get 11.. or else really pengx.. is his standard high or wad? why wan us to retest when we nvr fail it.. haiz. but i noe i really screwed up my refraction test. uh tt wan i really hope he can give retest... or else i will fail damn badly...

sighed. okok..enuff of all the rantings.. life stil hav to carry on . . i noe.



signing off - - -

Happy New Year ~ ~

ahahaha. yay its time to collect ang baos! lolx... gonna go to my uncle's house soon. but since now nth to do decide to blog now..
hmm... its been a few days since i updated.. but i was really busy. now tt the public hols come.. can relax all i want.. haha.
abt my last post... i guess i'm okay now.. thanks ppl.. but i feel tt stress creep up to me faster den anyone else. or mayb i'm jus paranoid. lolx..

las nite was reunion dinner... harx. good food... =p den i was feeling lazy..dun feel lik touching any of the stoopid hw so went to watch tv... the show so funi n nice.. haha. mahjong! i oso wana play... v.long nvr touch it le.. den later my cuzins call us to go over to their hse n we end up playing poker.. lolx. my cuzin yi da qi xiao... ytd he damn lucky lo. become banker nvr lose $ in the end win all of us.. haiz. but nbm todae we shall win back. muahaha. den in the end me n my sis stay overnite at our cuzs hse cos its late... n i only reach home at 7 this morning. and yea our homes are jus a few blocks away.. shoo convenient rite? haha.. its e first time i spent new year eve at my cuz hse... haiz..den now v.tired... yAwns. but i noe todae wld be a late nite.. going to both my mum n dads de relatives hse... den tmr nowhr to go liao >.<

anw..gtg le!
enjoy ur cny everybody ~

arh ha ha. im nt luffing. im going crazy. insanity.
its no use for me to blog now. wadeva i type now.. nobody wld understand. and i dun want it to anyway.
this is stupid. this is idiotic. this is getting on me.

i want to SCREAM. but nobody wld hear me. nobody CUD hear me. cos i dun wan to.


u were right. i'm gonna break down one day --

haish...
jus days ago i was optimistic.. n now i'm mild pessist. wad the hell* is going on manz.. i cant stand it i cant stand it.! grrr.... life can be sucky. at times. the tings tt i wana forget. the tings i wana ignore.the things wich i dun wana care about. buuttt everything jus kep happening to me. me.me. but i've learn not to qn.. why me? - - - - - - - -
wad do you do when u are not happy... i dunoe. i jus let the feelings get to me. which aren't good. but its not wad i wanted. its nvr wad i did. its the ppl ard me who affected me. n wad can u do when u jus cant ignore them?
kill them???
lik i could..
---
l i f e taught me to be selfish. to be unfeeling.








// how i wish i could change.
the more i hope for good things. the worse dey get. now.. having peace is the best i cud get.