Its me..its me its me..yesh i'm back..
Haiz.So long din't use da com le..don even noe tt my blog got prob..now jus change da layout..but i'm so tired now. dun feel lik finishing it.lol..i'm lazy
n1waes. i oso alil bit don get use to this new com. [yesh finally hav a new com! =] n i'm using explorers now..which i hvn been using for months..feels alil awkward =S
Lol..i seems not be getting used to anything. |ife hav been pretty good w/o the com..hahaa. nah.i miss everybody. i miss my blog.

Where shld i start manz..sHo sHo mani things happen.whahaa..somebody ish Ahem.nvm..i wun xpose u =) but i'm happie..truly happie.
Watch incredibles yesterdae.hey its not a bad movie..n i tink i like Dash amongst all.Altho i agree he got tt irritating lil bro face look.LoL..i'm used to tt for 14 yrs..but violet invisibility is sho superb.I wan tt too..hahaa

Went for CcA toDae..wad the heck sia. i alil bit regret le. the normaly shooting was okay..manage to maintain "some"standard lOl.but den horr...coach wan us to train PISTOL too ..n its damn heavy lor. damn heavy den the rifle. [emm...okay la.Rifle ish heavier.But den u get to use 2 hands to support..where as u are onli using 1 hand to shoot for pistol..] my arm shake lil crazie sia. n my 2nd n 3rd fingers which are holdin the pistol is swelling with pain manz. Strain my muscless...arhh n it seems tt i'm e only one with "finger injuries"..(hand smaller lorr)hmph.. now i really treasure usin rifle liaoo..at least u wun get to suffer so much pain =( don feel lik wakin up tmr..I'm Gonna Hav A Bad Muscle Cramp on my Arm sia..
N wAd's wOrst!! tt kat horr..standin infront of me shooting..den dunoe how she shoot sia..Shoot until the pellet retrograde back n hit mE..grr. Si Kat.u wana kill me izit..

'nuff abt todae. Spend the las few days finishing up 5 jianbaos =). Jus 5 more to go..n i can complete it.Yayy..i've confidence tt i can do it be4 i go for my holiday on 8th hahaa.but thrs still e O lvl bk to do. haiz..nvm one by one..lol.
basically i'm jus chilling out durin the hols. tMr got the idol finals!whaha..lookin forward to it..=D

*Music is my world..
*Music is my remedy..
[ music rockss..]

I'm so tired.

Came back frm the chalet this morning..yup i decided to stay alas.Its fun and nice..altho this time thr are lesser ppl n no bbq.
Whilst the rest went for the arcade, me.pai.yp.hh.lf.went to stroll around n guess wad? We saw ivy lee,vivian lai and yvonne lim at the sesamee street show!n we even shake hands with ivy lee..hahaa.So qiao,we din't realise dey wld be at downtown east too..The rest of the nite was spend mostly on playin poker,chatting n sleeping..zzz altho i tried nt to sleep but haiz..still can't withstand it.slpt for 45 mins and was waken up by the rest to go the beach to see "sun rise"lol..its so nice to be at the beach early in e morning..so peaceful n nice..arrh i can't wait to go to the beach again.Its realli been a longg time since i went to pasir ris park.we went at 5 n sat thr for 1 n a 1/2 hr.omg i regret nt taking my jacket along with me manz...its so damn cold at the beach when u stay for long.but nevetheless,i still lik the cold winds and looking at the seawaves. =)

now that i've no more places to go to n stuck at home..its reali time for me to hit on the homework!
SCREAM ------
I muz reali do n finish some by sundae or.. i will regret. December wld be busy for me and i musn't waste ani more time.no more time left.i hope i wld stick to it. =(

Meanwhile,hrd frm some tt the class posting wld be different nxt yr.double humans first den the bio classes.hmm..i tink the change is kinda refreshing ba..N i hope it can change the mentality of some who tinks bio are the best classes n took da sub w/o having interest for it...I feel that interest is the most impt factor above all. If a student hav no interest in a subject, i doubt dey wld hav the motivation to study hard for it...

I wana hav some good sleep n feel refresh again..now i realli understand why relaxing is so impt..=p I hope thr are more to come for me.the last 2 days are gr8.this is the type of hols tt i want. [n i'm definitely relief thr is no work this week =]

Its soO fun yesterdae nite!! hahahaa..altho the day din't realli started tt well..(forget it). n btw. i din't hav to work till nxt week~ i dunoe if its gd news or bad news to me..lol.But its reali time to enjoy..=D
~ Went to watch taXi las nite with kat n jiemin.jiemin poor thing seh.wait for us soo long.but hey nt realli out fault..we can't leave tt earli..At first we were aRgUing to watch Incredible or Taxi..n its reali fated.lol..me n kat wana watch tAxi but she want incredible..n in the end me n kat gd ma.give in to her..lol but later when we went to tM no more tix le.Or rather its the front row.i dIe oso dun wan to watch the front row sia..afta the experience frm the cinderella storie.SOoo..we finally got the tickets to TaXI.9:15 show.whaha..i guess tis had been a LoNg LoNg tIme since i watch such a late show.but come to tink of it,its nt realli that late la.ended at 11:15..went to the intc still got alot of ppl. Ok anw,the storie is shooo shoo shoo funie tt u realli luff frm the start of the show till the end! hahahaa..n i'm nt exaggerating. its a MuZ wAtCh!! great comedy n thriller..=p

>>*] HaPpIe biRtHdAe KaT~~~. U are finally 14.haaa [*<<

n ya..todae is our claz chalet too..hmm wonder if i shld stay anot? if stay le its v.troublesome for me..but dun stay is lik missin out fun too..n i luv to be out at nite.arhh..i guess i will decide later. Its quite a while since i see yupin n pai too.+ jen.lol..da ppl whom i see everdae in schh..haiz. i do miss the days. (surprisingly). anw. i can't wait for the class results to be out too..get it over with once n for all..

Cheers~. i'm happie. hahaha
bUaIi..

thr's really nth much to update actually..but i jus feel like blogging.hahaax. Hav been relaxing all dae. i'm feeling so good afta recharging my energy this weekend. chilling out with music n jus plain lazing around whole day feel so great...lol. Guess wad i'm getting tired.mentally.haii..i guess i prefer freedom bah.the thot of me owas goin to the same place [marina bay]jus kinda bored me.N i do feel tt i missing some tings..i guess i will work till the week i'm goin holidays ba.i see if i'm gonna continue afta i come back but i doubt so..lookin at the calendar its onli left 2-3 week.mus cheong homework le..but dunoe why. i jus can't sit down still todae n finish up my homework.damn.its so frustrating.

- - Admist everything,i do hav sth to look 4ward tho.hahahaa.me cuzin finish his exams lo!tt means i'm gonna change com soon...finally.=D

:: there are many things tt we wanted in life..but looking at the whole- when you dont hav what you wanted you can't exactly "lose" it so not owas getting wad you wanted could be a good thing too. =) ::

yAy..i'm back =p.

tHiS few days is so busy n tiring..
but well, at least i'm not wasting my life away doin nth. hahaha.
wEnT 4 e laSt pRac on tUes (yay!)..lol i tink my skills hav dropped so drastically over the last 4 mths. practically slackk every trg afta da championship in July.aNw heCk la. i'm tt kind hu dun realli care until da comp is drawin near.hahaha.its holidayss until we hav to do the sec1 orientation.
niwaes.gUesS what i hav been doin on wed n todae...
mE n kat went to w-o-r-k (yeshh work)at my seniors mom agency. =) i'd rather go out n earn some cash den stay at home all day..bUt its realllly tiring manz.waking up early every morning n workin for 8 hrs.den reachin home at abt 7++. YaWns.i guess this explains all on why i hvn been updating n onlining.i'm so hook on to com tt not onlining for 2 days seem so longg..lol.n yeah,sacrificing free time too..definitely. i do miss the time when i used to listen to perfect 10 everytime when i'm at home. but nahz..i guess i don hav the time for it noww..haiix.i guess i will treat this time as an experience too..haha. a tough one tho. staring at the com whole dae..its gonna hurt my eyes sooner or later..
N guess wad again?
Our class is having a 2nd BBQ~~~. wow,our class fund is so damn rich.LoL..nahz. we paid full expenses on both chalets. Cool huh..din't noe my class is so hooked on chalets..haha. but i will treat it as a pOst-reSults gAthering. yep thr's defintely things to tok abt..i guess. n tues is oso kat's bdae.(happy bdae kat.n this is ur present.hahaaax)
YaYY~~ da weekends are coming soon. i finaly noe how much i appreciate them now. its off-day work..=D.
Till thenn...
CyA..~

SIAN ...!
nth to do manz.. i'm so bored now.
went to tM todae. hahaa. disturb jovita n all..+ seeing jiemin wif the weird tie LoL.hmm..i guess its quite tiring for dem..frm morning sell till 9:30..n poor jovi ish still sick. well not that i've recovered anw.i tink its gettin frm bAd-wOrse =/
i jus dun lik to eat those stupid sweeet medicine.ughhz.i rather it be bitter manz..
Back to todae..jovi "forced" me to buy sth..hahaa n i tink i jus went thr to hav my lunchh..saw flo n her siss. um wait.shld be sisters.lol..so long nvr c le. oh yea..not to forget some pri sch ppl..

the skin-- I noe thr's no hover over the links..sry ppl..but u jus click n it will be activate..but i will tRy to do sth abt it.
i guess i'm still nt used to a nOn-black skin..[ i mus confessed..i'm a black-skin addict hahaha]. jus feel that its not very me or sth.. but i can't find any nice blog skins too..so yea.

yesterdae..~ we had our streaming results back. for a minute, i thot its the class posting n i'm damn anxious (together wif a few online chattin non-stop lol)..but it turn out to be otherwise. Sub-comb onli..aiya i dun really care.cos its nt lik i'm putting bio as 1st choice.i thot ev.body would be kinda happie n got wad dey wanted. but it didn't turn out to be so.n yesh yp..i tink the sch is veryy guo fen to put u under BH.firstly u did damnn well kae.n 2ndly u din't even put tt as ur choice..so yea hope dey cud be an xception for u. I wonder when the Class posting result will be on? -i tink this is the most scary one- it determines who ya going to be ur classmates bla bla.n of coz frens!haha but come to think of it if thrs realli 4 Bio,1 GH,1 GL,1 PoA..den thr will be high chance of me goin to class of familiar ppl..hahaha. thr's like 10 in my claz takin GH.+jovi+jiemin..so it will okay la..i hope.
-18 Bg
-4 BH
-10 Gh
-3 Gl
-3 G
- 1 nil

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Good lucks guys..

Hey guess wad.
i found some veri-or-somewhat true personality tests. =p
well... i was jus bored..but the tests turn out to be quite beneficial
n i mange to discover some truths lol..

Mystical IQ Test
51.06%
Your Mystical IQ is in the AVERAGE range which is not bad. Clearly you have an interest in that which is mysterious, mythical, and intriguing, although you may not be familiar with specifics. Keep an open mind, and let yourself explore the mystical side of life. It will broaden your perspective and titillate your imagination.
[ Haha..veri true =]

Are You Depressed?...
66.67%
The results for this quiz place you in the median-high range and indicate that you are suffering from some depression. Because our emotional health affects our physical well-being and vice-versa, depression tends to manifest itself through fatigue, changes in sleeping patterns, and changes in appetite, to name a few. Changes in life can also cause depression because of the closing of one chapter and the unknowns that come with opening a new chapter. Part of maintaining a positive emotional state of mind is the ability to express our feelings in productive manners. Bottling things up only cause problems. Make sure you have someone to talk to when you feel down about something. We all need to vent in order to digest daily life and the challenges we meet. Don't be afraid to seek professional help either. Admitting your need for help is often the first step to recovery. Good luck and remember to express yourself honestly, as this will help keep you feeling more grounded.
[lol..true la.]

Which Color Are You?...

Your color is BLACK, mysterious and successful. Black symbolizes power and achievement. You are strong of character and able to attain your goals undauntedly. Your ambition and polished style exude a sophistication and grace that are unparalleled. These qualities are impressive to all, and intimidating to some.
[err..nt realli]

Emotional Aptitude...
65.13%
The results of this test indicate that your Emotional Aptitude is very good. You are comfortable with yourself, and generally know how to express yourself and handle stress appropriately. You are creative, motivated, and you deal with change positively. You know yourself well, including your talents and weaknesses. There is, of course, always room for improvement. But you are the kind of person who is progressive and seeks to better yourself anyway. These traits are what help you adapt to change and embrace personal growth.
[yah i noe myself well..tt's all.]

Emotional Maturity...
70.00%
You scored very high on this test! Emotional Maturity is a vital factor in the formation and growth of our other intellectual abilities, and you certainly have a solid foundation. People with high levels of Emotional Maturity tend to be more successful in life than those with lower levels simply because they know and understand themselves better. An important aspect of Emotional Maturity is being able to identify your feelings and their causes, which is something you do well. This helps make you the proactive person you are.
[hmm..]

Assertiveness...
50.63%
The results of this test indicate that you have moderately low assertiveness skills. Being unassertive can keep you from achieving your full potential and realizing your goals. You may find yourself easily frustrated and unable to do anything about it. Assertiveness is closely tied to self-esteem because of the confidence factor. Begin by reevaluating your self-esteem to find your strengths and weaknesses. This should help you focus your energy on those areas that need improvement. With increased confidence, you will find that you are more relaxed and empowered in your decision-making abilities. This in turn will help you grow into the person you are meant to be. Good luck.
[kinda true.]

Stress Resistance...
71.11%
You are somewhat resistant to stress, but have room for improvement. Start by making a list of the areas you want to work on. Remember to also list your positive attributes. When under a lot of strain, we tend to forget about our talents and good qualities. Don't be afraid to confide in your family or close friends when you feel a little down or overwhelmed.
[ Resistant to stress? nah i dun tink so..]

Coping with Stress...
65.33%
The results of this test indicate that you have very good stress coping skills. Most of the time you are able to resolve difficult situations. There may be, however, times that you become a little anxious and even depressed due to feelings of being overwhelmed by some things. Not knowing how to deal with those feelings can leave you feeling helpless. Learning to cope with stress will have positive ramifications in all areas in your life. Begin by stepping back and looking at your situation from an objective standpoint. Try to prioritize your obligations, leaving out those things that are less important. Be realistic in your expectations of yourself and your expectations of others. This will empower you to achieve your goals and to handle unexpected situations smoothly. Remember to set aside time for yourself to unwind and relax, be it through a hobbie or sport. Keep up your positive outlook.
[The first line is wrong..but the rest are right..lol]

http://www.mysticgames.com/mysticgames_cfmfiles/tests/viewtests.cfm

Oh finally...

I spend 3 hours editing this skin...n my eyes are damn pain now. Not to forget my sore-throat n headache. yesh dey are back!! arghhh..its barely 2 weeks since i recovered..n i'm sick again =(

i suck at colour combinations..but after several editing..finally decided to listen to cheryl n jovi.Blue.Izit nice? Haix..but i dun hav time to do it now..i'm getting dizzy..
I noe the blog is not finish yet..but i will do it later..
Right now.All i wanted to do is.

SLeeP!

sstupid darn com.

i was bloggin halfway n it jus suddenly hanged on me. grr ...
aniwae... it sure feels good to be out and about since i was cooped up at home for the last 48 hrs pondering over things which i shouldn't give a damn.. n yesh i'm gonna shut up abt it now..
when was the last time i step in to tm? i couldn't rmb.. but boy, it sure had many changes up it sleeves which is kinda good.. i'm really getting sick of tt place n i practically live thr all my life. well, at least so far. it has an open plaza at lvl 4 n some newly open shops. hmm cool huh? lol..
newae ... went to catch the princess diaries 2 todae.. not bad la. a light-hearted movie. and a fairytale is jus wad i nid to get my mind away frm all depressive thoughts.. princess mia messsage : dreams do come true. but well, allow me to add sth to that. only in movies. duh.

siann..7 days have past. is these holidays wad i wanted? no. i want more. more. more happy n fun things to hip up this hols. n ya, i 'm jus being optimistic kaee. life is gonna take a turn of change for good. i dun bliv tt i will remain wad i am now forever. as the saying goes ... nth last forever..
newaes.... i guess its oso time to hit on the holiday assignments. lets jus hope tt we wun hav more homework afta da *gasp-- posting results. the chinesee homework is alreadi a handful.. i hope i could finish almost half of wad i'm suppose to do by december first. hahaa. its a goal tt i will try to achief. lol.. meanwhile, this is wad i have

- 2 book reviews. ( thank god)
- 10 newspaper cuttings.. ( a total of $7.50 to be spend)
- half of the O lvl chi bk.. (stupid sehz. so fast ask us do for wad)

signing off now ...

i'm at a loss of words. at a lost of emotions.
how i wish..
i could numb away everything..
i could erase all the unhappy memories..
the anger.
the disappointemnt.
the hurt.
the sadness.
the resentment.
the negativity...
that had since grown in me this yr.
yesh.. everything. everything happened this yr.
what's more?
i hope i will nvr get to know. cos'..
cos.. i wun be able to take it animore.. nvr..ever.
i've reached a limit.
n this is my breakin point.

i dunoe wad to do..
i'm lost.. lost in the cruelty of reality.
i wana hide away
but i noe.. escaping will not solve the problem. the problem in me.
i've tried. tried to cover up the resentment tt is lingering in me
but wadever i do, i jus couldn't..
n i'm not sorry for it.
i'm bitter.
the bitterness tt will nvr go away wheneva i thot of it.
mayb its a part of growing up..
mayb it will go away one day..
but for now, it won't.

n now, afta all the tears tt hav dried..
i will look forward to a new day
a new day which i live for myself
i will pick up the pieces tt hav been scattered
n build up the faith in me
the beliefs tt i have lost..
i hope i will find back the strength
n put my faith in something/someone which i truly bliv in
but now..all i hav is..me

I couldn't tell you
Why she felt that way
She felt it everyday
I couldn't help her
I just watched her make
The same mistakes again

-+* its too late now.. wad's done have been done..-+*

Haixx`
its tuesday now..
4 days hav passed..
i've been lazin at home for the past 3 days doin nuthing..
i'm realli bored to tears..
online also nuthing to do.. besides bloggin. so yea u can xpect me bloggin mani craps these whole week..unless of cos iF this com is going to work against me like wad it did todae. humph! i re-start until wana die..

wad shld i do. wad shld i do. wad shld i do.
omgg...
i feel tt..
Life seems meaningless now.. without goals to achieve. without things to look forward. without work to do.
i'm just waiting for time to pass away from me everyday...
well.. okay. thr's actually work for me to do. but i jus dun hav e motivation to start my hw. to finish e storiebk. to finish my piano pieces n to clear up my darn messsy room. wad's wrong with me. i dunoe.. mayb i'm suffering frm an unconscious illness tts eating up my sense of reality.. or recovering a shock which i, couldn't even feel it. i'm going crazy. i can't see in a perspective of what i should. i can't feel the way i used to feel. i wan to break away from this phase.
Nah..forget it. its just my imagination working overtime. but i discover sth scarie abt me. lol.. usually when u hav nth to do. u would jus find sth to entertain urself rite? but its different for me.. i jus kept on eating n eating n eating until i'm so horrified with myself... omg. i'm positive thr's sth wrong with me. but the prob is... i dunoe wad izit. the only symptom i could associate myself with is depression [well, basically thats e onli illness i noe tt binge.] but. huhh?? depression?

aniwae... jen went off on sunday. she said she will call me. but so far i receive no calls frm her.. not tt i really itched for it. [ u noe e bill...haha] but of cos, yea i wan to hear from her too.. thr's sth i hvn told her. n thr's sth she hvn told me too. =S lol.. ya we both owe each other sth.. i wonder wad's she gonna tell me. stupid lorhhh. keep me in suspense. tt dae at e airport dun wana sae. haiiz. . . let's wait. . .
by the way... i dunoe y ppl keep tinkin i will take lit. lol.. got 4 person le worh. nvm..if i had ani inspirations..i would post it on e blog. meanwhile, i had a luvvelorrnn fren who nid my immediate attention. so cya.

-* thrs so much things i wan to sae to u ...... but i guess thr isn't a nid now *-