Omg. im so freak out when i check the stats todae.

80 stats in a day!!!

and there's one person who come like.. i dunoe.. about half of it??!

scaryy la.

Ok ya anyway... i feel so happy todae. finally got things done
Did my filings, MATHS, econs and finishing reading othello! =)

im so glad its now now now. i still remember i was extremely depressed last sunday. and i was so sad when i report to sch on mon and tue tt i wanted to cry.
i guess i was upset cos i know i will not be happy yet i chose to stay... but then i feel okay and happier when i mingle with my friends and classmates.
that was such an extremely sucky feeling..
speaking of which, i think the previous class was much more 'happening' ba. i can only describe in that way..
and oh orientation, the ending was much much more fun then the beginning, of cos =)
but then again, im glad its over. waking up so early everyday is no fun and being haunted by my aohl messages. he seems to just love passing down messages in the middle of the night and i have to pass it down to my fellow ogl mates too and he kind of irritates me la.
and oh rmb my partner? I DUN HAVE TO TALK TO HIM ANYMORE. YAYYY (:

all these temporary timetable makes me feel so slack now... was talking to lydia and she was just telling me how bad the system is in her sch. got so much breaks in between some weird periods like self study and bla bla and her days end veh late everyday.
you know, when i hrd of all these, mj doens't seem so bad now. but who knows, im still quite apprehensive of taking the new timetable now, the previous wan was okay with me.
and ya, JJ was just complaining to me few days ago how sucky his timetable is now.
and how he regrets going tj... but still, i dont think its that bad for him.
And guess wad kat (if u 're reading this), he misses all of us sia! haha.
i feel so much better to know that im not the only one missing all the good old times. pengsoon also told me he prefer tms so much compare to now de (:

and hh is so funny can.. she say she miss seeing my face! HAHAHA.
and ya.. i hvn seen her for quite long already, guess the last time was when all of us were at her house ba.
and ya you know it just feel weird without seeing all my friends everyday now when we used to see each other everyday. i miss all the stupid times that we had... like hearing everyone conversations in the mornings.
and you know because of that, if i dont see you for 1 week i would think that i havent seen you for quite long when in fact, its just 1 week.
even yuping, same school same stream we also dont speak to each other!!!!! i havent even speak to her since school starts and yes... that's really weird.

Sighed.

I kinda feel apprehensive of keeping friendships... i just have this instinct that some of them will fade sooner or later.
and yes, its just inevitable. but hey, i will convince every single one of you that if it so happens that we dont talk for a very long time, dont hesitate to chat with me okay even if you find it weird.
I won't be cold, promise.

And chatting with lydia these few days really made me miss her alot.
hope everyone can meet up someday again.. hai

im so tired, drained and lifeless now i also dunoe what happen to me


i need sleep like nobody business.



and i guess i made the right decision, dint i?

I'm like literally brain dead on the literary aspect.

HAH.

i've no more inspiration to put my ideas and daily abouts in words. wonder how im going to die for gp later..

anyways, i prefer to view things as a new beginning. fresh start. 'cos beginnings are always clean and happy and you can leave everything to your imagination. so yup, i guess we should embrace beginnings and the challenge of the unknown, whatever you call it.

Past few days passed on idly... Had bbq steamboat at Hans, went for air rifle camp. and oh, the camp just reminds me how much i love the past.
But the past will still be the past
and i have to constantly remind myself that whatever that i missed is the past, not the present

sounds confusing uh? i guess no ones understands how im feeling but ya.
im going off and the day tt i can use my com comfortably in my room would be my happiest.
:))

YAY. CAMPPPP.



and that's it man. u irritated the hell out of me and im so pissed off now. BYE

right. gonna spend my 2 yrs in mj with optimism.

my com is still down. dont have mood to blog too.

went sentosa on fri, arugh. i dunoe to say if i regretted it or not but i came home with a rather bad sunburn on my shoulders and back. its so red like anything and it kinda bothers me these 2 days. i dont even dare to go out in the afternoon for fear of the blazing sun.

im so bored at home now >.<

arughh. my computer is down again.

i've so much things to say. last week is probably one of my busiest and enjoyable week..
me kat and cherie finally met up and have dinner together before cherie flies off to australia for her attachment programme. tt's like... Fun. its seems like everyone around me is going australia. i miss the place too...
thursday was supposed to go soiree but i dint go in the end.
Den it was friday. i was happy though it was rather a mixed feeling as it was the last day of PAE. I forsee many changes in my class, i suppose. AND I REALLY DONT WANNA THINK ABT IT. This whole thing is driving me crazy.
But on a lighter note, the day was good too. I finally went to huihoon house with the rest and it was bridge time! =D
ahhhh. i wonder when is the nxt time everyone is gonna meet up again...

sometimes even though i enjoy being with the new people, i still prefer spending time with my close friends..

On sat, it was MMM. At first i really resent being that game ic cos it is the most troublesome one. We have to go so much recee man but den seeing the trial run of mmm that day, kinda appreciate being mmm ic cos i saw the other ogls so tired, drained and all. hahaha. BUT. that partner of mine is still as ARUGH as ever. haiiiz
Met up jiemin afterwards. Played arcade with her and i actually enjoyed playing the driving thingy. Lol... for the unaware, im the kind who super protest going arcade cos its such a waste of money.

Sunday . Went out in the afternoon, den reunion dinner, den night again.
and i cant believe that i actually dint watch a single movie the whole of last month. what a record... seriously.

and well today, gonna have cg outing. which means i have to go now...
i got a feelin my com wun be up for about a week =(