frustrations



Little things that irks you but you know they are beyond your control.
Or you know you cant change them.


Sometimes, i sleep just to stop myself from worrying and being awake when such things happened.


and its times like that when i wished i was anywhere but here.

Bye, im off to sleep now. I have to be out of the house by freaking 0930.
Nights.

YAY. I love jiemin's camera!
Her's de colour and quality are so much nicer than mine!

And this is my fave photo - london cab! LOl

Chatting with Cherie just now was damn funny!

I was talking to her about mahjong all along and she thought i was talking about noel!

Hahahahaha.

Okay, i guess i might still go back to noel... although i really hope my cousin could give me a better offer but well, i really could do with more money. Lol.

there are so many things that i need to buy or have to buy!

anyway, im currently enjoying being the only child at home now. Hahaa.. my sis went to the hostel to study and i dunoe where my brother gone to. lol. nobody to snatch anything with and i cud use my sis com!

my primary school friend is so fortunate la... she's practically travelling during the whole of the holidays and only come back after christmas! ahhhhhhhhhhhh.

oh ya, i miss chalets too. bbq. night outs.

and aR outings! (ps don forget. ya turn! =)

and oh yes, cherie's gonna be on tv soon! yayyyy. go girlfriend :))

Gonna go east coast park tmr with jovi they all.

I hope it dun rain tmr...

No it must not rain!!

I feel so stupid yesterdae... went out without bringing my ezlink card!

in the end.. i've to walk back home. not tt bad tho.. i reckon i nid that exercise.
hvn been exercising since i step down from air rifle... and the last pe lesson??
LOL

and hey air rifle peeps.. any trainings leave me a msg k. im missing all the actions already.
5 months prove to be too long... my score probably would be on an all time low :(

on a serious note, i do miss my cca. shooting has become part of me... part of my routine ever since it registered in my heart when i was sec2. determined to improve myself... determined to come out at the top and hone my skills. it was damn tiring and can be a tad emotionally draining sometimes... but still. i feel it difficult to let go of something that i've been doing for 3 years. and honestly... that's the only area that i can truly said im proud of myself and proud of my achivements. im quite a horrible pianist... and im not really one that you could call a good student in terms of results.

and this lead me to another thing... i guess one of the biggest regret i ever have for this year is not doing well (no, call it super terrible-horrible-worse of allresults) for my mid yrs. if not... i would have went for dsa and most probably get in to tj... where all my seniors are there. im still cussing at myself whenever i thought of it.
A lost of opportunity.
and ive no one to blame but myself...

anyway... dint mean to be so emo early in the morning but suddenly it just flow out and i felt i nid an outlet to write them all out.
speaking of studies... my dad said some stuffs to me ytd and it kinda reaffirm my choice of going jc.
initially... i wasnt tt keen for jc.. in fact i feel so lost. i dunoe where i should go..
but i guess im quite sure of going jc now... and spending that first 3 mths fruitfully.
i just hope my Os results dont suck too badly.

Hmm alright. back to the holidays! how many days in a year can you actually called it a holiday?
so yep.. i think there are times for playing and time for worrying.. lol
gonna go orchard later for my overdue dental appointment and maybe some window shopping with min. im so broke la after grad night... my estimation since grad night till now is that i have spent more than a 100 bucks.
:(
work? doesnt come that easily too.

and of cos... im gonna be damn sure that i bring my ezlink card out todae!

Oh ya friends out there who wanna have their photos from my cam email me and i will send them to you k. and cheryl, jiemin and huihoon.. your mails are full... lol

Btw, my msn is seriously screwwwed. i dunoe wad is wrong with it and i can't access to my mails too unless i use my sis com. this is really getting irritating..

Ok sorry i dint noe the photos cannot be downloaded... trying photobucket now.. meanwhile just browse through the photos ya..

i will post it after i finish uploading them..

Nothing beats staying at home with a hot cuppa and a good novel to snuggle up to in such a cool weather.

Anyway, was out with yuping and pai to celebrate yp super belated bdae (as she puts it haha).
had lunch at fish & co... man it was delicious!

im currently uploading tons and tons of photos now and it doesn't help tt my com is super slow and tt i still hvn got hold of the photos in jiemin's camera and that i cant sign in to msn!!!

grrrrrrrr

alright.. the website that i was talking about was this ..
Check out my photos and videos onMyPhotoAlbum


and here is a scroll of the photos!





there are other photos of various events this yr too... like the muscial.. feel free to take wadever photos u want -- esp jex and lifang, huihoon & hiangling!
i took so much photos with u guys haahaha.
and of cos my close friends out there... =)
















4 NURTURE!

All the best to everyone... will miss you guys loads!

All change is stressful -- even changes for the better.

i went to the airport todae... but its finally not for studying!

and not becos im flying off too... hais stil nid to wait 1+ week..


Ok, me and yuping went to send off jen who is finally going back to indo!
haha. she waited 11 long months for this.
it was fun u noe, its been long since we sat down tgt.. chat & stuffs... and talking rubbish with her. hahahaa. the good 'old sec2 times.
Had lunch over at popeyes too =)
but at the same time.. its kinda sad too.. though we have all graduated i don really feel the sadness of parting with everyone cos i believe that we will all still meet up often and see each other but for jen.... its like so difficult. firstly, she's going to a private school.. which is so far away from us.

anyways, we manage to ask her to take pictures with us... and if u're wondering why arent there a grp photo.. its becos she refuse okay. dun ask me...i also dunoe why... LoL





























haha. with all the things im carrying think i
look more like the one going overseas.. lol















Byebye jenni... my ultra-pretty-loud-funny friend!
we MUST meet up again k?

:)































after looking back at past photos... i think i look super different when i have shorter hair.
and i guess i still prefer myself having straight hair. lol.
ehhh.. to everybody who wants their photos from my cam.. im so sorry.
im not blogging them here cos its really to many!!
im actually compiling them somewhere... with all the past photos. heh. secret for now =x
i promise by monday night i would pass the url to all of u...

as for now. i nida sleep!
tmr is gonna be another hectic day... i nid to crawl up early in the morning...
weird thing tho.. ever since Os are over i've been sleeping till 10+ which is so unlike me.
i used to always.. since the beginning of the yr to wake up at 7+ during holidays or weekends
no matter wad...
haiz.

anyway... nites~

Yea. O levels are over... but im not enjoying it one bit 'cos

I HAVE TWO BLOODY ULCERS THAT ARE KILLING ME LIKE SHIT

I SWEAR I WOULD NOT BE SO GROUCHY THESE DAYS W/O TWO BIG ULCERS HURTING ME DAY AND NIGHT, EVERY MINUTE AND EVERY SECOND.

even sleeping is painful now.

i dunoe how im gonna survive grad night... and my cheeks are so puff up due to the swollen lips and ulcers. wth... im suffering these cycle almost the whole of thIs yr. can't wait to get braces off man. tt culprit.

haven been too happy lately... dunoe why. maybe there are so much negative feelings directing at me from all directions. i cant even seek solace from one end. yea u get wad i mean..

holidays. after 11 months of studying & studying.. i finally could call one day a holiday.. and getting my life back.
but... after almost 4months of intensive studying and putting everything on a standstill... it feels so unfamiliar being back to where i used to be. maybe studying kinda change me... lol. but yea.. somehow i dun feel like my old self.


just like how im so not use to blogging now. but im doing it now cos im too bored... and i wanna fill up the gaps. its getting too long already...


anw. gtg now. bye.