Maybe i should start ending this consecutive posts of sh*t


Hmm aniwae.. i finally get to breathe and have my fair share of fun. todae is jennifer bdae!!!! heee. xD she shoo gd seh... treat us to watch movie - the drink drank drunk... got miriam yeung act de. quite nice. go catch it if u have e $$$. haaa. so long nvr go GV le... sighhh.
if u are wondering what we got for jen.... its a stylish cap frm 77th street! hahaha.. sth which i not bear to buy for myself. cos firstly, there's no one to share the cost with. hahahaha.
den after tt walk walk... chat chat and reached home. may seem mundane to you but means sth to me. feel tt im such a no life person for the past weeeks. arrrrrrh~ like i can do wad i wish .....

If only you noe, im filthy rich and i culd jet away to some place, say Adelaide and study and live there. minus all the things/people/memories tt i have to leave behind, i tell you i will be so ultra happy. so happy..... read abt south australia last week... ( came wif the 8 days) and i start fantasizing how it will bel ike living there. im dreaming of a transquility place where i do not. let me say again.... do not be stressed out by schwork and stuffs. - but. its stil just a dream. unless a miracle drops down from heaven.

Hmm. been trying to make myself feel happier. less depress. less worried and less stressful... and the solution tt i thot was to shlef all the unhappiness aside. i don wana stress myself. aint gd for me... aniwae speaking of tt i guess i have to spend the rest of the semester having lessons in the pathetically small but cooling MI room. depending on the weathe... it will heaven for hot swelthering days and antarctica during rainy days. but during normal days... we 're still able to freeze inside. so yea, u get the idea. and the table... is the worse tt i ever seen. i tink its all one-tenth of a normal sized table. and the room is kinda dim. and thrs no clock in the room. and due to long duration of cooping inside the room... somehow i feel lose touch to the 'out side world'. Lol. enuf of the complains... the good thing prolly is tt we do not nid to carry things and walk around, climbing stairs in school. haaaz. and we will be the first to get to e canteen if stoopid lion king don hold us back! ( haha. 3N joke. )
Actually, if no exams system and no tiring days i quite like being in school. love crapping wif my frens. rather be at home. can be quite boring wan... [ after having enough sleep ] but ... the sep 1 week hols will stil be veh welcoming. even tho its only one week. and after that... its hell time and full-steamed studying. Really!







i will not think abt it and i will not feel sad.

Ok. im like... all alone now. n this blogger like got prob.
haiya sian.. i veh bored now.
actauli jus now thot of many things to blog..
but somehow forgotten ...










In my life now, i feel tt im losing mani things... mani ppl.
ive lost confidence in myself. lost my achievements. lost my capabilities. lost in touch wif ppl hu are once veh close to me. losing my trust. losing my faith. lost the closeness i have with friends. lost my secrecy. lost my love for life. losing the optimism.
im losing my thoughts.















lost in the realm of uncertainties.

Blah.
im using orange now becos i feel like using it
not be becos i feel as bright n cherry as it is.
haiz`

hmm aniwae.. this week is packed of tests. but kinda relax now cos it seems tt tmr wun have two tests. phy changed to fri =) but it will also mean tt i cant buy jens prezzie wif u guys... sorry ar if ure reading this.
HAIZ.
haiz` haiz` haiz...................... sighhinggg
my whole heart jus feels like it now. sigh again.
*breathing in deep breaths
i need to calm myself now.

ppl told me tt i look stress ... which is ermmm.
its true tt i feel stress la but i dont tink i show it? unless i talked to you abt it, so its kinda weird to me. lol
aniwae... i think im utterly hopeless in maths . haizzz. i tink i will do badly for the test todae...
but on the other hand, im kinda happy tt i did not do badly for my e maths test. lol
haiya... i really hope tt november hols come quickly. but part of me dreads it too...
'cos it will mean tt the end year exam and Os chinese is coming...
which is sth tt i very don look forward to... =

thinking it over now.. i feel tt im so stressed up is becos i know im not performing up to standard. as in really tt kind of basic standard.... im stil scared. what if the day before end year exam also lik tt? cannot lorh. i will be like so dead...


haiz.

still lookin straight forward...

life have nvr been so hard on me.
for fifteen years... i have gone thru much ... i have seen enough things.
and thinking back, i dont think i can rmb any real happy stuffs tt leave a long lasting impression on me.
such a sad person , huh.
but u noe.. asking me not to emo when im really feeling sad deep down is kinda difficult.
i feel so sad. so lost.
i have a fantasy of packing up and leave.
For Good.



i may look like im okay all the time. i laugh. i joke. i act normal.
probably becos i wan to put on a mask and hide all my feelings.
but its getting hard now.
tts why im spilling everything out... here.
but if u see me on monday, u probably wont see a hint of wad i m typing now.








flying away

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i have no idea wad to say...



















































Cos i just wan to scream it out loud
the hollow, silent screams in my heart is getting unbearable.
No doubt, im VERY stressed up.
im actually very scared u noe...
for once, i would openly admit tt im scared
im afraid tt i cant succeed. NO MATTER HOW MUCH WORK I DO.
i jus cant.
is thr a cure for stupidity?
i tink i desperately need it.
I HATE THIS. I REALLY HATE THIS.
but what can i do?
cry and give up?
no way. im not going to be defeated so easily
i believe... i have to .
i hve to keep on bliving tt whatever i do. i can eventually get wad i deserve.
i dont wana lose my faith.
but if this goes on ....
...................

why why why cant i go back to what i use to be?
the impression tt i gave to ppl is hardworking? gd results?
and now wad i am?
arughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
this sucks. ralli sucks.
and this post is like shit.
forget abt it.
u did not read this.







im sinking ... lower than i ever could. ...

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Look forward .

woo. woke up at 10am todae. was supposed to have my tuition... but now . dun tink having animore.
as for the lack of entries, i wasjust so busy . and ironically, these days are happening and i have much to blog on. but ... i think i prefer to keep them to myself now. its enuf for me to be happy whenever i thot of it.
we, the jie meis rock ya (:
i luv u guys. i just feel happy whenever i with u all.

but. i feel so down now.
i'm actualli very depressed. frm yest. nite to now. i want to scream it out. i want to say it straight to u all (not the above). but i jus noe its not the right time. its realli too much for me to put up buai song face infront of them. i don wan to create another din. however so, i stil have a rush to say it out to u all. it was so chaotic for me. right den, i shove it aside last nite and went to sleep at 12+.
and i woke up todae. surprisingly, i guess i found a way.
but i noe i will still say to someone.
its highly unlikely for me to keep quiet and not say anith.
sorry, but no im not the kind who can swallow my unhappiness and not voiced out anith.
why?
cos u will never understand if i did not so.
im exasperated
.
.
.
and feeling more so terrible.




Anyway..
DIM SUM DOLLIES rocks~
had a great time. the show is both dirty and hilarius. LOL
the only down thing i guess is that everybody is so tired out. okay, most ppl.
i hoped thr are more outings lik tt.
it was so fun...
come quite unexpectedly to me tho.
i was feeling kinda stress and felt tt this is not the exact time to watch the show.
and yea. speaking off that. i guessed i better go off now.
tons for me to do
signing out...

Happy Birthday Singapore !

Lol.i think todae de parade was the bestt even the usual performing part was good. haiya too bad... this year as usual i did the boring thing and stayed home. should have went to tamp to watch the fireworks. hmphh...
but still, not bad la. just not long ago the army tanks went past my house. a wholly big grp of them... and the traffic police was sort of escorting them to seal the stretch of the road. nice eh... but very noisy when they drive past. and many ppl went down to watch... hah.

haiz todae so sian. im bored to death.
sometimes i wished all my frens have a blog. so i can read them to kill my boredom. and most of the links tt i had dont update .... so can u imagine the siannness i had online...
but aniwae, i went blog hopping. discover some fellow temasekian who have really interesting blogs.. .
there was a period of time when i wanted to stop bloging.
but heck, even if all the ppl ard me stop blogging.
i still will. . .

Long day ...

ah. so many things happen these two days. yeaaa gd thing is, i wun have ani time to be bored. bad thing, im tired!
okay. sunday... went to do the class cip. tell u what... other than e fact tt its a sunday, the cip is great manz. most qing song wan tt i ever did. really lorh, sit thr be spectator nia. n I SEE TAUFIK!!!! Bwhahaha.
the celebration ended ard 9:30 ... so we sat thr for almost 3 hours. it can be boring... but when everybody started talking... v.fun and hilarious. we were laming here and thr. hahaa
and then afta tt was very hungry. dint have our dinner so we went for supper - h^2 grp and da 3 of us... it was kinda late when we finished and everybody was so exhuausted.. but none the less we had fun!! yeaaa~~

welllll. todae... i had trouble waking up. the celebration was aokay. but still.. not as fun as last year. the food fair was a big bore to me. the teachers concert is entertaining... but somehow not v. appropriate for national day celebratons leh... seems to me like some teachers day- childrens day celebrations. Lol
later on... we (the h & me grp) went for lunch and movie. charlie chocolate factory. seriously, i wasnt very enthu abt it. but after watching it its okay la. firstly, u mus be a fan of this novel. 2ndly, u don mind spending some money.
bah. i was so so lethargic tt i closed my eyes for few mins during e movie. cant stand it le. but dunoe why la... when my mom called me to meet her my aunt n my cuzin... i was suddenly awake. dint feel as dead as i felt in the cinema. n so qiao.. jovi also meeting her mom at bugis... so we two happily took the train together.
haiiiii. dint expect the day to be as long as yesterdae too. thot was only some shopping... but in the end we went to little india. lol. den went to a very big big big chinese supermarket... so shunag can. shopping at a supermarket. LOL
n i just take n take n take all those food tt i wana eat. =p my mom commented tt i look like some hungry person stocking up food... whahaha
after dinner... reached home at 9+
tink i better sleep early tonite...
so tireeeeeed +
and i have tuition tmr morning. blahhhhz

signing off

Break You - Marion Raven
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I was your girl
Gave you my world
My everything
But you wouldn´t see

I had your back
I backed you up
Whatever I did
Was never enough

Just you
You
That's all you ever thought about
You
You
No one matters like you do
What goes around comes around
You should know by now

Bet you never thought that I could break you
Did you think that I would look the other way
Yeah you had it all figured out
But tell me who's the one who's crying now

The palm of your hand
That was your plan
Gave me no time
But now you want mine

It's all about take
You took too much
Nothing inside
I'm all used up

Come on
You
You
Nothing else matters like you do
You know what I'm talkin' ‘bout don't you
What goes around comes around
You should know by now

Bet you never thought that I could break you
(Bet you never thought that I could break you)
Did you think that I would look the other way
Yeah you had it all figured out
But tell me who's the one who's crying now

Cause you can't hold me down
Not now
I wanna thank you ‘cause now I'm free
I can breathe again and I'm never going back to you
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the song is in my head now x)

jus completed the stack of maths homework.
and tts the only work i have for the week. Lol

Hmm.. going to do class cip later.
and the cip is damn weird la...
be spectator at the tampines national day celebration =S
but.
be spectator only!
ive nvr done ani cip as good as this. LoL. or well.. mayb we'll have things to do later.
aniwae. i nid to go now...
bye ~

i cant believe im such an IDIOT! ! !
few days ago.. i thot there was a problem. well obviously, there is but i did nt realise tt its due to the change of blog- skin.
how stupid. bleehh. >)
aniwae. lifes suppose to be good now.
yayyy. weekends! i gonna slow the time down. hahahaa
had fun yesterdae (: i luv being wif different ppl
erm. nt realli different la. i noe them well. just a c h a n g e tts all.
predictably, boring , senseless things bore me to death.
and when im bored, im boring.
yeah yeah yeah. c h an g es! good ones.
and i gonna change my room. as in change back....
i hope things wld be better. and i even contemplates to give the com to my bro. put in his room. not becos tt i cant conc ... i feel im deprived of work space wif it . 8 mths. bla... but afta some vivid arrangements... gussed i no nid to afta all.
and now, i realised tt my computer is far too personalised to give to him. LoL
i cringed when i use my sis com okay.
actually... other den printing, micwords i dont even want to touch her com. i tink her com got too many spywares, "viruses" and all. + our tastes are completely different. just like how me, jiemin and jovita characters are so different. lol
and my bro... everytime download new games.... making the my com so lagggy. and imagine the horror if i move the com to my brother room. i will cry
LOL. so in conclusion.... i' m very picky. abt my personal space. abt my stuffs. abt ME !
lalala~

mAths! chem! ive developed a sudden interest for them..
talked abt contradictions.
i find chem more interesting now... i dunoe why. and maths... i want to do well.
as for SS . Geog. i dislike them now. mayb its the teacher. mayb its the subject. mayb its the aftermath shock of sa1. i donch noe. but ... i stil prefer humans to triple sci lah. i jus don like Maesten and her boring boring lesson. everything take out frm text book! like we dun noe how to read !!! got a sinking feelin tt i will flunked combined humans. and geog ... ... i dun wish to write abt it.
blehh.
nvm...~ i will conc on the subjects tt have my interest now.
whee ~~

oh ya. i just so happy tt i solve the problem. cant bliv i was so stupid. arughh
but as for now... i noe thr r ppl reading my blog =D
frens, ppl , stangers...
but dey jus don tag ....
sighhhed.



i noe the rest of the day will be b.v. smooth
hee hee.
my new found enthusiasm .
luvin' it

haiz. is there a problem???
weird ..........
anyways. i have been waiting todae for so long. since monday.
ha ha.
blehhz. e long long weekend is finally here! yayyy.
and im gonna do some things during the time... read. do.work.play
whatever. im jus gonna do it!
x)
this week is gd :) no training!
butstil nid to do some things lah..
but i don care. no more tests for me alrite.
im drained.
3 in a row.
been going out wif e same ppl . eh wait. shldbe different. sighed nvm. im confused myself too. hahah.
life is a routine. doesnt it sounds familiar?
sch. work. slp. sch. work. slp. n ocassionally. weekends come
bleh. 2 in e ratio of 7 abit nt fair leh...
lol.

being constantly unhappy is no good.
being constantly carefree is a gift.
being naiive is deceive.
being stressed up is part of life
reelistic : sad to happy 6:4
have u ever count ur blessings?
sadly, u gained experience mostly in a hard way...


sighedd. its incomplete.
anw. im bored now and most imptly...
i nid to fulfill my promise
e promise to myself

signing off...

monday. hais

i think i have a serious problem . i cant keep myself awake!!!!
succumbing to sleep is the last thing i want now.
so many things. so little time
how????
and da stupid geog test. im only 1/3 thru.
heng tmr no training. that was the last thing on my mind for tues man.. i just want to rush home and rest and study. REST. the biggest temptation ever.

had ar meeting todae. im overwhelmed wif decisions making.
lik... why is thr big sudden changes. i noe its for improvement.
but i stil had my doubts.
hopefully e meeting tmr will be a quick n fruitful one.
jus so happy got no training... lol


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