live n die....

blah blah blah...

yeahh~ had 3 days of e-revision at home aka. holiday. but its not exactly an enjoyable one.....=/
Sianzz`` ahhhhhhhhh. everydae juz revolve books, ws, notes....no life sia. Y muz we hav xAms nehh? i stil dun get it. dOes a pIle oF pApErs -killin-trees measure n determine ur abilities in the subject??? N of wad great use does it do to students other den stressing us like craziie ppl n killing our brain cells. its nt worth it! hmph! ..... if dey reali wana cut down syllabus to relieve our stress dey shld abolish exam manz..

aNiwae...complain so much. Stil hav to study laaar. hAixxx. i've been goin to da airport since mon till now. lol..first time go for so long n in a stretch of 4 days. i'm kinda sick of it le..hahaax. but yep the environment is gd. perfect 10 rocks. whahaa. i can't imagine life without music...

hMm..nth much happen to me this few days xcept study study study. juZ update the blog for the sake of updating. hahaa.... but i do prefer these days to normal sch days. its a different routine ba.. n i hate being stuck in sth for too long. haii. time do fly huh,...even tho it seems long at times. bUt i still tink this yr pass vehh fast. i still can rmb the beginning of da yr. the middle. n now. sec2 life is gonna be gone soon~~ n yahh i will miss it. i nvr look forward to sec3 but duhh...hav to move on. b4 i end..i wanna wishh ev.body gd luck for ya exAms! dun be too stress horr...heheez.

--*~ ]... Looking up e sky.. e stars shining ever brightly.. how would the ending ever be?...[

cos i'm too bored out....```

: 1. ur name?
_* mOk cUi wEn aDeLiNe =)

2. frm wat sch?
_* tMs

3. where would u wanna go rite nw?
_* to the beach....stargazing ('')

4. wat is ur wish rite nw?
_* gd results...n happie stuffs. hahaax

5. when did u last cried?
_* forgoten...

6. do u lyk ur handritin?
_*when i'm not writing in a rush...yea hahaa

7. ani bad habits?
_* uhuh.. sure.. lazy

8. wat is ur most embarrassin moment?
_* most? forget liao..

9. wat would u change bout u?
_* alot...

10. r u a daredevil?
_*sumtimes

11. whu inspires u 2 live?
_* fOr the sAke oF my pArEnts...

12. do looks matter?
_* frankly speaking.. yesh..cos ev.1 wants to look gd. no?

13. do u blieve in ghosts?
_* yep

14. hw mani piercins do u haf?
_* 2...1 side each

15. r u trendi?
_* maybe ..haaax

16. hw do u release anger?
_* show my anger out..keep to myself or sumtimes worse i cry out of frustration( y can't dey c frm my point of view??)..lolx

17. where is ur 2nd home?
_* school lor.. haixx.. spend most of my time dere
oni.. >.<

18. wat were ur fav toy(s)as a child?
_* forget liao,..hahaax i suffering frm short term memorie nw..

19. fav sports?
_* umm...cycling. badminton. aR ?

20. when is ur best moment(s)of ur life?
_* when i'm happie...

21. fav dessert?
_* mango pudding!

22. abs-cbn or gma?
_* HuH?!!

23. fav bands?
_*s.h.e, linkin park dot dot dot

24. wat do u look fer in a guy/gurl?
_* good personality.. humourous.. honest...hahaa

25. wat is ur nickname?
_* aLL those funie stuffs tt my frens cud tink of by distorting my name...lol

26. would u bungee?
_* when i feel craziee..

27. wat do u wear when u slp?
_* clothes lahh..

28. wat do u worri bout rite nw?
_* studies. myself.

29. did u eva go on a diet?
_* haha.. nope. cos basically i dun hav the mental strength to do tt...

30. when is ur 1st kiss?
_* well... when i am born? ahaha..

32. whu's ur crush in showbiz?
_* no one..

33. wat's ur fav color combination?
_* all the bright colours+ white

34. fav ice-cream flavor?
_* chocolate.. yum yum

35. fav animals?
_* eHHhhH....

36. r u in luv nw?
_* what's luv? hahaa

37. wat will b ur weddin song?
_* ... how i noe..

38. greatest regret?
_* for coming to this world...

39. kylie or tata?
_* erpx.. neither..

40. motto in life?
_* not 2 do things tt is beyond my conscience ...

41. 1 nite stand or long term relationship?
_* long term..duh

42. future profession?
_* eAt n play ev.dae..whahaa

43. wat is da perfect date?
_* dunoee...

44. wat would u lyk fer ur birthdae?
_*nth..

45. wat will b ur resolution?
_* change myself.

47. r u a better listener or a better adviser?
_* BOtH! hahaax.. ok iwill stop being bHb. seriously..i dunoe. go ask my frens if u wana noe..

48. are u happy wit ur life nw?
_* noooO.

Mugging*~!

Yup guys, its the "time" of the year & nitemares 4 many students. Its the eXxam period!! Groans...

I've only sgtarted "studying" yesterdae or so i thot. hahax But yea..manage to revise a bit. And i realise tt without onlining, i actually hav plenty of time for studies lol. i've decided to STOP wasting my time online & began my revision. Compare 2 many i'm quite lagged le okayy. n relax. I'm not stressing myself out hahax.
AnW ppl, Lets put in our efforts and study hard to prove to our parents, siblings, teachers bla bla tt altho we ppl slack alot, we still can get gd results de kay. =]


" A disappointment could only push ourselves forward and not wallow in self-pity. "

This thot juz dawned at me n i felt tt its kinda meaningful. A reflections on my previous entry? Hahaa..seems like i'm beginning to feel positive. hAi,,, actually i'm not exactly sad. juz in low spirits i guess...+ moody. N mostly its the environment tt i'm at tt gav me this kind of feelings... not wad's going in my mind or anith bothering me... aNd i owAs felt tt in class. Haix duno y...n i felt kinda bad. to the ppl ard me. sumtimes ur own negative feelings hav impact on othrs too..n i dun like it cos its juz like addin e burden on sum1 else. rite? hMm mostly i wld prefer to sort tings out myself or juz let the feelin go away. at most i wld blog on it and let the whole world noes ba. hahaax...altho tt, i'm not quite sure if i'm e kind who opens up to ppl. aM i? i duno.... ....
n i wana sae sry to yp n gang! i dunoe y arhh.. i always felt moody in the clazroom n causing u all to tink otherwise. But its got nth to do wif u all de okayy.. but i juz sumhw got irritated easily when i'm alreadied moody. hahaax..a veh weird n troublesome person rite? i dun wan to but i juz seem to be in e phase of it..
I give up...n doubt thr wld be anibody out thr hu cud help me. n i dun xpect ppl to understand me cos feelings are ever-changing n complicating. perhaps..perhaps..onli ur own soulmate..


2 everione:
---*[ i'm sorrie if i eva make u unhappy 'cos of me. Believe me when i said i've tried in times of my downs n forgive me if i failed to do so.]*---

....misconceptions...

hAix...i'm so tired manz.

at least thr r tings for "joy" todae. 1) finally finished doin d&t 2) took back geog test..hehe at least not bad ba...afta all these disappointments i got this week.
And for all those ppl who want long entries...this is it. but suddenly i feel a mental block...=/ dunoe y sia...haharx can't put anith on my mind to words. neeeed ling gan. lucky the compo xams are over le..lol

tOdae arhh..slack alot durin sc lesson.. (as usual rite?) n i juz finished the geog hw....now hav to cheongg for my art. sianz..why muz we do so mani art pieces while other classes juz slack away? not fair sia.............but come to tink of it..hav anith been fair in the world? no.

I tink my negativeness hav overcomed me again. Wad's this...on n off on n off. omg i dun tink i can handle all this mood swings animore. N the enormous pile of tings to be revise n done seems endless... gRr i hAtE eXamS. exam sucks. i wonder if all those muggings n efforts tt i hav put wld hav ani pay offs in the end. once again...|ife isn't fair. some ppl hu dun pay attention in claz, sum ppl hu dun do their hw n sum ppl hu dun study...dey stil got highhh marks. whereas sumtimes even tho i studiED, i still got bad results. arrrrrgh. fine..i'm stupid. i know tt.

aFta such a long n depressing week, tot i wld hav sum light-hearted coverstations for the meeting todae. i nid laughter to cheer me up. But wad i got in the end? being accused of hiding secrets frm them and liking someone. I stil dun understand manz. Does smsing sum1 means tt u like tt person??! iF that's the case.... den i wld hav liked ALOT of ppl .. not logical rite?? If u wana noe , i did sms ppl tt much evertime. Be it guys or gals. Its getting so irritating...i haf said b4 tt if i realli like somebody i wld tell.

i AM fRustRatEd.

! sUrvivEd.

Finally...that entire horrible week is over. mAnz. how glad i am...tho time hasn't exactly fast-forward. come to tink of it...i also dunoe y i felt so down n negative last fri. well, maybe its my point of view. Frm looking back (lyk wad i'm doin now) to look forward (wich i did las fri). it really makes a big diff huh...

Las sat is sho cool manz~! it did not turn out as bad as i thot. Went for the S.P.C.A flag selling too. U noe wad...the nxt time i'm gonna sign up for flag selling, i wld surely do spca, noe y? cos while i was doin it..i realise that the ppl are more willing to donate for spca n its a more popular oraganisation. So ya..popularity helps it all. N of cos all the cats n dogs lovers out thr.....=X

Hee...afta reading ps blog feel so guilty. Ppl like him prepare soo much for todae's exam while wad i did is onli goin thru the formats for both languages n reading a lil bit sihan eg. for chinese. At nite. Haha...of cos i wld be alil scared cos preparation not enuf ma but den turns out tt the exam is quite okay. But i'm not so sure for the chi compo. at first i wanted to write the "easier" one..but den i decide to choose another one wich i had experience on.

|oUsy

i juz realised that........... |ife dun sucks. This whole week sucks manz. So mani things juz happen together.
so mani xtra lesons + so mani tests + so mani tings to do = StrEsS (big time). I hate this ...Arrrrhhhhh. wHy muz life be like this. wHy why wHy ??? i guess i din't imagine tt the wk afta holidays wuld be so Lousy.
I feel so lousy.
everdae juz seems to be a drag to me. i dread tmr, the day afta nxt + + + until this whole idiotic wk is over. even the wkend seems so gloomy. Paper 1 starts on mondae yea... tmr goin for tt stUupid dNt. tMr wld be a busy one. hav to rush to my piano leson afta tt. N rush back to do tt flag raising. den rush home back again to go for my cuz wedding dinner. Cool huh? more of tiring to me..
what i need rite now is a day free of worries n tasks 2 bring me down. n down. Juz how deep am i goin to fall frm now? i dun noe..n dun wana noe. i hate myself. my results r juz slipping. N i juz realise tt all the people ard me are starting to mug n studyy. hAix. i nid my motivations....i absolutely nid 2 start studyin or i wld diE. todae's maths test is a gone case sia...so difficult. when i was lookin at the paper , my mind went black for a min. Luckily i still "noe" how to continue. but the prob is tt i hav no confidence in wadeva i'm writing. juz got a panicky feelin inside. haix..preparing 2 fail this test le.
aRggggh....>> i feel like screaming out loud. dUnoe wad's the prob wif my mom n bro. *shuting my ears* juz feel like geting a big burden off my heart. aM i worrying too much? i'm dreading tmr..the day afta nxt..n nxt. iF onli time cud be fast forward.. =x

HelP! wHr's mY aNg3l ???

+-- [ if i'm gonna open up, i cud. but hu will it be? ] --+

Arggggh ~ |ife like this...sucks manz. with all this stress frm sch piling up..its depriving me of my sleep. =( wad a great dae todae...all the bad news pour in first after next... Firstly thr is the hcl test. I tink..this is my worst ever frm sec1 till now. lOl..break record worh. Haix. Can't blame anith...i knew tt i din't exactly study hard for it. so..i deserved it. juz put in more effort nxt time? hmm...
aFta tt...geog. Realise tt we did wrongly...luckily* suriadi stil let us hav a 2nd chance. To me..i duno if its lucky or not. =X dO a 2nd time? the storie is ok....but the pictures are a Big problem. i wonder how dey are goin to settle it manz.. Den thr is this geog test tmr. (argh) N art...hvn do yet. + fri still got maths n oral. Den sat sitl got dnt..i realli nid a break manz. haiXx....god bless u.

hAnG oN...... =(

Haix..sho sianz. wanted to update alot of tings in the hols de...but in the end com spoil. =( dun even noe if its repaired alreadi not. juz so gald tt i cud finally use now. Clear all the junk things n keep myself "updated" on the tings in my life. lol..anW i'm realli darn tired afta e hols! can't even feel the muscles in my arm n leg ....den at first dun feel like goin on sun de..but no choice hav to. cOz of my sis word...Perservere Perservere. bLa..i realli felt like giving up on goin for tt course on sun..but den i tink of it. Since i'm arleadi sHo tired. And lagged in my hw. And gone out for the whole of e wk..might as well carry on till e end. Ugh. wAd great hols i had. haharx..i'm genuine. my hols hav been pretty well until the end of it. not tt fun bah..haharx..but nvm our ' long term' goal now is the end of eXams. hahaharx! but also v.sad...separating le. HAix... Gd things nvr lasts. rmb tt..
anw..i'm so tired todae tt i almos faint in class...beta get sum rest tonite le. Cya ~ .

<<+ I hope ...everything wld happen ... the way i wanted. +>>

]...tired + happy + realisations...[

Haha..i'm finally back. a Long dae worh..but i definitely liked it =) its fun yea >>compared to sleeping at home ev.dae =X Lol
Hmm..whr shld i start nehz.Ok i guess it wld be kat's injury, haiya this gal..duno how she walked de. go up escalator also will cut feet..ugghz its pain kae.I c le also can imagine how pain it is..but okay la she's strong..nvr cry lol. But becoz of tt we missed like abt 2 trains? ( n dear ashley n her/that/fren waited for us for abt 15 mins heh heh) eVen her fren who took bus also reach earlier den us lorh.But hrd frm ashl tt he took cab half-way anw.haharx..actually we were supposed to watch m0vie de. But den it turned out tt the m0vie tt we wana watch only left the FIRST ROW! den i was like oMg..no way manz. First row again?!?! Hahahax..n it turn out tt dey gav in so we nvr watch lo. =)
Went to Pasta 4 diner den took n3oprints again.Haha..guess ashl was as addicted too.Hmm..1 of the photos turn out v.nice tho hahahx coz the three of us (me,kat,ashl) wore white together so looked like "angel" hahahx...okok.I also forgot how much we took le but i tink its quite alot bahx =X.
Ok den afta tt nowhr to go le so we decided to head to da airport. But haiiix..who noes..ashl mom suddenly changed her mind. Dun let her stay overnite thr. grrr..den all of us had to change our plan. nvm..turns out tt she hav to be back by 12:30 so we still went ahead n chat thr lo. Heeee noe quite a few tings frm ashl..[but tt's not all k]
Anw..2 more of her frens joined us. Kinda big crowd le bahx..N 1 of the ppl were quite funie lol. dEn thr is this stupid idea of playing truth or dare. -.-' [IF i knew all e ppl thr..of cos it wld be fun.but not la.] aNW..lUcky arhhh..haharx i onli got once. dEn the rest are them le. TInk ashley got the most ba. N guess wad..we made her do sth. Can't sae wad is tt. But i still tink its daring bahx..
Haha..But going to her hse was the best! cos onli left the 3 of us le..den can chat alotttt. Realli alot. If not for ytd..guess thr will stil be alot of tings tt we dunoe ba. sOme were sh0ckings. sOme were xpected..hahahax erm let me tink wad did we chat huh? oRh ya..her/that/fren. hmM..swt 15? i doubt so..i tink 15 is v.problematic!
eVery tings juz started pouring in.......
hAix. Guess i dun look forward..wAdeva.btw..i also 4goten how i 'fall asleep' ytd..can't rmb. hahax.But me n ashl were the ones who slept on the floor. Tt pig slept comfortably on the bed...aiya she got injury ma.We so gd rite..hahax

iTS a n!ce n!te worh. luv sleepovers =)but die...hw so much. haiz..wonder when will i finsih?

> mIscoNcEptIoN <

Cool...finally taken some time 2 hav fun afta all these tiring sch days. i wan a break. ughhz..exams are coming..howx..grr

tOdae is fUn..guess its been a long time since i go wif kat alone. hahaax...we went shoping n she bought more tings den me. lol..bought a new top. heez...n i realise sth abt me todae. i cAn't part wif money easiily. hahahx..mayb its becoz its my money tt i used todae bah.... i'm the kind who will only spent my money unless i see sth i like..v..v.v.vv much. lol.. [tt's y i stil can't get a new phone now] arrhh aniwae...todae walked until my feet pain sia. wich remind me of sth...i hvn been doin exercise for how mani wks.hahahrx...typical. i'm e most unhealthy person in the world.
anw,,,i'm gonna break my own record! hahax...striving to go out ev.dae..lol mon- PS , tue- orchard, wed/thurs- overnite ,sat n sun -- helping out for my cca. so i'm left with fri..hmm gonna do sth abt it. hahaha..ok i noe..i'm cRAzIe...tt's wad i wana do... bE crAzie. fOr OnCe. =)

--> i finally noe e difference between 'break' n 'broke' ...whaha <--

=.Yea! .=

Yay~~~~~ i'm so happie!
can't believe it..my mom actually allow me 2 overnite at my fren hse! wheEe~~~

tOdae went to PS wit yp n pai... took quite a long time to choose whr 2 eat. lol..den went to take ne0prints..1 of the successful one bah. haharx..den went to catch e Cinderella storie. aRghhh..its front row. my eyes n neck juz hurt. tHe director suck manz..his way of fliming [moving here n thr] make my eyes sick sia. haizzz..regretted! i wld neva..eva...watched at the 1st row animore.. hmm..anw the movie also not so nice.

wadever it is..i still enjoy my day hahax..not like someone worh [still muz go sch hand in hw lol]

ok i guess tts all. tmr still hav ta go out wif kat da cat... hahax =) i guess i'm juz gonna waste my hols away...[again]. cYa~

** 13 going 30 **

tH!s !s my 21st pOst ~~~

Haiya..i'm so tired now. i could *fall asleep* now..wad a long and tiring day it is. Oh ya.. i realli dun understand..it has been a trend for dunoe how mani wks. weneva its fridae..i wld be damn tired. -- tt kind of 8 sth alreadi can slp le.

Okk lets c..todae is kinda different also bah. For da first 2 periods, went for the openhouse. heh heh skipped english lesson.. den afta tt got back our progress report. I guess its satisfying bah..but definitely not gd enuf. Hope tt the end of yr wld be better..>>

aNw..i tot we wld go to e airport to send jen off but becos of 1 factor or the other..din't managed to. so in the end went to watch m0vie..yay finally =) | 13 going 30| v.fUnie..whahharx i liked the storie. If only ev.one got the chance to be like her.. to noe wad will happen in the future den go back to the time to change wad wld be drastic...so gd rite. but yea. n0 m0re fairytale.^

I'm SO TIRED! arghh i wana sleep now..regardles of anith! ok so cya...Holidays juz STarted! Yea~~~ but tmr stil hav to go back to sch for the last practice..but nvm 1 time onli. heez...gd luck ppl. NitexXx ^

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+.....Studying...=( +

HANG ON!!! onli 2 more days to holiday! yeah!

ughhhz...how i wish holiday wld come tmr.. grr. cant stand schlife. i'm shooo tired! omgx...i hate thursday...Worst day of e week for me. got sch.got x-tra classes.got cca. whoa everyting combined in 1 day can die manz---. haixx. i'm suddenly sooo...........not in high spirits. duno y...but i guess to noe tt tmr is goin to hav a hcl test ain't gonna help. . iF not for tt i wld go n play le....sianz. i suddenly realised tt thr is alot of m0vies i wana watch. Ha! btw rite...v.lame la tOdae is da 1st in dunoe how mani nths tt i ate ch0c0la+e. mUahahax... soo nice. if onli i cud eat eVeryDae..omgsh tt's h3aVen....! hahahax..okok stop it. if i eat ani more than tt i'm gonna get fat.again. oh wadeva...

bUt aniwae..i had enuff of b'dae cake treats in 1 month le. firstly thr's my dad..den my brO n +mr my mom! lol...the 3 of them bdae vehh near whereas me.......haixx sHooo far frm them. i'm always da odd one out in e family..... arhh aniwae..* wonders* wad my sis gonna buy for my mom. i also dun realli noe wad she wan lehh. hmm v.bad hor? ahh but wadeva izit..da persent ting is my sista buy de..so i n0 nid w0rry so much lol.

aFta 2 yrs of not watching +v...i guess i finally get "addicted" to it le..hee hee but den..aLL e sh0ws tt i wana watch is wkend de...sho stupid rite. Y muz both of the serials be aired on e same time?!! uhhz.. tt's y i owas look 4ward to wkend. =) hahahax.... guess this wkend will not be tt bz bah. Hope can catch a m0vie soon... i'm hungri for it.

Okk i guess tt's all...sIs come back le n' hav 2 study for tt irritating test. =X buAixx ppl^

---* jUz hOpe everything wiLL be bAck 2 n0rmAl *---