Exhaustion.


I thought i would fall just now.
But for once, i can gamely say that i have done my best by training hard.

Lets just leave to fate to decide on fri ...

Movies

yesterday was tiring. went to orchard with flo and jovi to watch She's the Man. that's one great romance comedy movie man! (pun intended. hah)
To think R.V was hilarious enough.. LOl.
yay. i love watching movies that make me feel happy and worth e moolah =)
forgotten to mention that i finally watched da vinci code with kat on tues too... afta i painstakingly cheong finish reading the book in the morning... and yea as expected, it wasnt that nice... but i think i wld regret if i dint watch it. Lol
movies movies movies. its like a revenge afta being deprived of it for 2-3 months.... and i doubt i wld have the time and money to watch it when sch starts. ok.. maybe one last time wif ash? hmm.

training was unusually fun and less tiring this week. most probably was because we have absoulutely no lessons or anything to drain us off our energy. but i dont expect this lucky streak to go on .. especially when coach seems to want training every single day next week.
sighed.... i wld go for anything that culd make me feel awake and energetic in sch.
and coffee dont do the trick for me.
=/

The homework pile is still relatively high... but i've been trying my best to clear them. especially tonight.

Screw jianbaos... 20?wth.

Bye`

Ok. its suppose to be wednesday, 1102am.
was typing this entry on monday... but was too busy chatting wif kat, her friend and ashley.
yay, dear ashh is coming back on sunday. ironically, the last of jun hols. bahhh. but whatever.. we're definitely going to meet up be4 she fly back to australia on thurs. what a hurried trip....
zhong se qing you sia she. =D haha ... its a secret.
and i dun speak so easily anymore, so dont ask. (:

the first week of sch reopening is gonna be one hell of a hectic.
and its gonna be more for me than anyone else.
i can just literally type out what i foresee...
mon- sch, hcl lesson, hw time (tt is if the sch dont change whatsoever policy), Trainings
tues- sch, hw time?, meeting ash... probably till night
wed- sch, hw time, Training (the last be4 intersch!!)
thurs - sch, hw time
fri- interschool competition. (duno got sch nt. hah)

its so damn packed and i tink i wld probably just collapse at the end of the week. and on top of everything.. there is still homework... tests... everything.
sighed.
but i noe... i shant complain or be unhappy when my schedule is piled up more or being upset by changes.
i will just need to grind thru this crucial first week... and will relax after... (i hope)

But for now...
summary of past few days -

4N chalet - Hmm. had my fair share of fun there... like in 4e room playing daidee and listening to flo's fren talking abt our sch's ghosts stories. Eating.. and playing more games in 4n room. Haha. oh yes... and the cake! the delicious chocolate cake was damn good.
i'm gonna have that for my nxt bdae! =D

Saturday
hah. since ashley send-off, haven really see my seniors for a quite a while. and nothing brings us together more than food! LOl. so yes... we had a full dinner at the 85 hawker. Food was good, and the quantity.... hahaha. judging from past experiences, i tink the amount that we ate last sat was kinda little u noe... lol.
Oh yes, kel brought his gal- friend along too. =)
afta dinner... we went pool-ing before watching movie. i'm so hopeless at playing pool... hope one day i cud really get the hang of it... R.V was a great hilarious movie! Its been long since i last watch a movie that make me laugh and laugh and laugh.... ha. but of cos, Taxi is still on top of my list!
the night ended quite well. just feeling tt this gathering was a tad too quiet...
weird sia. ok but nvm... another food cum gathering is coming soon. and that is our stepdown/ farewell dinner! all seniors are invited :))

Yesterdae went out wif yp.. ah yes we definitely miss the place, not forgetting our chats too. the time was well spent.. wif me completing most of my chem stuffs.. hah

ok. my breakfast has finally arrived. gotta go now...

update later :)

whoo!

i've so much un-updated stuffs. But firstly, todae's training was good and fulfilling. Although the 40 shots tt i shot just now wasn't exactly my best, its the efforts of the training that counts.

i bet i would do better the next time... on sunday i guess. the final monthly shoot for us under the school's name.
i hope mr soh culd get it this time man... Really nid to expose myself back to the competitive environment.

i miss the route to yishun on 969. kinda reminds me of michelle branch songs..

sighed. this is the last week of the hols. still have so much work left undone. don't get me starting on the lists. they are endless.

So many things, so little time.
and i gotta rush to my piano teacher place now.. Bye!

i tink im kinda reclusive at times.
and i realise tt im happier being off alone.

jus tt i don wan unpleasant thots to dominate my mind.

anyone realise just how fast and amazing our brains process thoughts?
its like... you can think and think non-stop.
but of cos... you will only stop when you are tired.
how irritating.
seems like you cant not think unless u're asleep. =/
i hate thinking now la. hai.
and i dun wan to think.. but thoughts just reappear and appear in my mind.
damnit.

wonder why some of the friendships tt we have are going down and a tad superficial.
its not any parties fault. just many factors happening at one time and we were forced to give up some.
you cant have everything at once. i know.
maybe im jus being emo, nostalgia but the feeling of being very close to somebody, able to share everything seem so long ago.
i've friends. sure.
good friends at that.
but i noe... they cant be with me whenever i nid them.
we've our own life yea.
and my lack of trust in ppl plays a big part in me not opening up to anybody.
but the irony is, i tink i telling too much nowadays.
so much that i wanna take back some of the words tt i've said.
and its so frustrating to be on war with ur innerself.
like shld i say, or shld i not?
and mayb this minute i feel tt okay.. just say lorh.
but then afer i said it, i wld be arughhh shit i shldnt haf said tt.

its so stupid and arughhh i hate myself when i feel that way.

i guess i shld keep more things to myself from now on...

:(

Yea. todae finally gave me a feeling of not a school-day kind.

the last few days were quite sad for me. Nvm tt i pon trg twice. lol.

and yes my fatigueness is gone already. i'm having good rest everyday. :)

Hope things cud really start looking up from this second onwards.
i wanna haf some fun be4 the sch reopens again.
so sad.
sighed.
anw, going for 4N chalet later.... wonder how it will be like. Lol.


I FEEL LIKE THROWING AWAY EVERY SINGLE THING TT I DISLIKE IN MY ROOM. & that includs PAPERS. Lots and lots of them. i'm having a headache just looking at them. GRR.
Rubbish.

i noe the things tt are bothering me and makes me feel unhappy but then i do not the energy to face up to them now.
sounds stupid but yea.
and there are some annoying ppl who just kept rubbing salt into others wound.
idiots. i do not need YOU ard me.
=/

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Lol. kat jus called me and told me abt their 4I chalet ytd. sounds fun. haha. and i tink i've a better idea on how to go le.
& both of us are finally free to go for trg tmr.. Lol.
tmr gonna be a busy day... going for dental appt too. hopefully can squeeze in some shopping time. Ha.
But all these activities mean that i cant catch the 3am show between Germany(!) & poland le. bahhz. the world cup fever is really running high in my home. Dad & sis waking up in the wee hrs go catch them... lol. And my brother watched them at china too but apparently he lost some money. haha.

Okay i guess i gotta go now. byees.

And the last thing i need is to Regret ...


BYE.

I just slept straight from 2 to now. no kidding.

and yea basically i just wasted an entire afternoon. Lol.
haiz. and everything is so endless...
i've no idea whether i want everything to end as fast as possible or happen as slow as it can.

Anw, watching England play is so so so BORING.
Germany is so much better man.

Yay. The world cup kick off was great yesterdae =)

But it seems tt many countries which played last time disappeared this yr.
why huh? lol.

Okay im so glad this bloody tiring week is over... i especially culdnt stand physics ytd.
super duper tired.
but i guess.. my exhaustion illness is starting to wear off. juz hope it wun come back and huant me for the next few weeks.
especially the next few weeks.
Three more weeks to freedom, 4 more days to get over my misery.

oh btw... cdans shoot is cancelled. think coach will be hopping mad at soh. twice in a row. ha..
and ps, whr are u?
think the last time i msg u was the same line. haha.
its like... im losing touch wif many ppl now. sighs.

Anyway, here are the pics tt we took at angel party.















































































:)

i'm drained, exhausted, worn out ...
whatever u name it.

School has nvr made me feel so tired be4.
until this june...

i'm nt complaining... but i feel so physically drained out from sch everyday. 8-4. i even went home straight as much as i culd. wif the exception of todae.
its like im even more guai den normal sch days.
sighed.

im getting older. and stupider

my ankle and heels hurt from standing rigidly during trgs.

my shoulder aches from carrying my bag for so long.

i just want this life of going sch non-stop everyday to end. i dun wan to eat lunch nearby sch anymore. i want to eat my mom homecooked food. and yes... they were back already. like 3 days ago. haha.
i was so glad to eat home food... sick of all the msg alr.

btw, my bro is having such a good time. he went malaysia not long ago for his obs or some sort of npcc camp for his sch. So fun seh... and he just left today for shanghai to do his overseas cip. his only misgivings?
he's will miss world cup for one whole week. LOL.

and my sis finally made up her mind to go nus instead of ntu. siao wan... i nvr see ppl change and change sch until lik tt. but yea... it means tt my hse is gonna be quieter since she's staying in e hostel.

and me.
yes me.
i feel so pathetic... up to now. i still do not know where to go.

hais...


spinning- rihana unfaithful-

ok. i tink im getting lazy to update my blog.

there's been so much things going on.
monday de soul garden feast. ( i stil hvn upload the photos yet.. sorry)

and friday 2/2 chalet!

com'on everyone has to admit tt we're the closest bunch of sec2 ppl. LOlx. though this has been the 6 times (eh,correct?) we're having chalet... its still as fun as ever.
Heh. especially the marina bay steamboat.... its like so funny la, we 're just being led so easily by the auntie and then into the van.. then reached the place. Lol... and everybody was joking wad if we get kidnap? Haha.

then while eating, got many funny stuffs happening too.. like how my straw melted twice... and we played zhong ji mi ma to clear the leftover food lol..
the mrt ride back was the most entertaining i ever took... wif these crazy bunch of ppl. haha.
Reached chalet ard ten plus ba.... den we waited for the guys to finish playing wif their xbox... so tt we can watch 3 geng. dint realise i watch it be4 until i saw the starting. umm.. i rmb thinking its not a very nice show. Lol.
anw.. i tink im one of the few who fell asleep quite early. 3 mayb? haha. but im one of the few who woke up early too... and for a while.. i was just sitting thr.. looking at the peaceful scene of all my frens sleeping. went out wif louis and kw later to pasir ris park. went to the beach too. when is the last time i went to the beach? whennn? nah i cant rmb. but i noe i've been constantly wanting to go to the beach for a day. jus tt i cant find anybody to acc me.... lol.

Played games. Had breakfast at mac. Reach home at 12.
realise tt im alone at home when i cant find my sis.
parents in m'sia. bro camping.
but they r coming back tonight.. yayyy. i quite lazy to settle my meals... but neh mind. going out later to hav lucnh =)

Be4 going off.. here are somepics. oh man, realise tt i hvn post up the angel party pics too! Muz upload all the photos frm the camera one day....
ok anw, here are the ones tt yp send me thru her phone. (got some in my phone but cant upload =x
































ok i noe this is nt a v.gd pic... v.blurry but looks kinda artistic to me. hah.

gota go le. byee~