i tink im kinda reclusive at times.
and i realise tt im happier being off alone.

jus tt i don wan unpleasant thots to dominate my mind.

anyone realise just how fast and amazing our brains process thoughts?
its like... you can think and think non-stop.
but of cos... you will only stop when you are tired.
how irritating.
seems like you cant not think unless u're asleep. =/
i hate thinking now la. hai.
and i dun wan to think.. but thoughts just reappear and appear in my mind.
damnit.

wonder why some of the friendships tt we have are going down and a tad superficial.
its not any parties fault. just many factors happening at one time and we were forced to give up some.
you cant have everything at once. i know.
maybe im jus being emo, nostalgia but the feeling of being very close to somebody, able to share everything seem so long ago.
i've friends. sure.
good friends at that.
but i noe... they cant be with me whenever i nid them.
we've our own life yea.
and my lack of trust in ppl plays a big part in me not opening up to anybody.
but the irony is, i tink i telling too much nowadays.
so much that i wanna take back some of the words tt i've said.
and its so frustrating to be on war with ur innerself.
like shld i say, or shld i not?
and mayb this minute i feel tt okay.. just say lorh.
but then afer i said it, i wld be arughhh shit i shldnt haf said tt.

its so stupid and arughhh i hate myself when i feel that way.

i guess i shld keep more things to myself from now on...

:(