One Fine Day ...

Yeay!! for a long time.. im really happy todae =D
frm morning till now. ok rmb.. i was lamenting abt the sun shining in? todae was a cloudy day. HAHA.. ok lame.

went wif yuping to e airport todae... ahhh. how i miss the place.. and i jus feel happy to be able to do hw outside. lol.. i dun really like to be confine at home.. even when i haf stuff to do. tnx yp!! shes one of a hell busy person.... i doubt anibody's scheldue wld be as packed as u. haha. rite.. we went to tm afta tt to buy tix for her class outing tmr and i went to the lib afta tt. returned some and borrowed 3 more. :)
i decided to walked home jus now.. suddenly rmb tt my dad was complaining to me last week for my high usage of bus fare nowadays. Lol... and the way was quite nice la. i just went nid to walk all the way straight to reach home. took me 20 mins on foot; 5 mins by bus
thank goodness it only starts to rain afta i reach home..

Aniwae.. sth very funny happen jus now.. i really mus blogged it out. LOL

first. received sms frm gabriel and jj tt thr is trg at safra..6pm again.
Ok.
second, ( oh rite, my coach english really very problematic wan. we always haf to figure out wads she trying to say frm her sms) i received this msg.
Gab: Pls bring along sort pant and sweater or trap suit pls

i was thinking ...siao wad are u talking abt ?!!!
so i replied ..

Me: track suit? why bring short pants huh... as in sch shorts?
(notice how im trying to decipher the msg)

Gab: She juz tell me sort pants is wad sort type wear e pants then wear shooting gear. Dunno wad kind of pants la. haha

Ok.
i read it twice

















And burst out LAUGHING! hahahahahahahahahaha (btw, yes yp thot i was mad)
the msg like rhyming like tt.... omg.(go read again!) i dunoe isit gabriel funny or my coach funny..LOLX

So i messaged back (in the mist of hysterical luffer) : Er wad sort she mean huh?
Gab: Me ask coach le. She say sort. How i noe. She said sort pants twice. U ask her

but i did not, instead i asked jj n cs. Both of them have the same interpretations as me...

and well later on, came this msg ( frm gab again. poor him. )
Gab: coach say its soft pants not sort pants. Help msg cs and jj. Haha

me? PENGZ!

almos died laughing aniwae....

Hahahahahahhaha. how funny can it be man..
( maybe it wun sound funny to u. but i tink any ar member wld find it damn hilarious. and i will keep the msg. kat n ps mus see!)


Lol. ok. another good news.

Noel called me again!!!

and this time dey so nice.. said asked me to be admin instead of packer. Pay higher!!
haha.. and of cos. i agreed ... and good thing is dey ask kat liao also!!
yay.. i nid to earn money sia. broke le..

=D

my sister peng when she hrd i got a job. Lol. she went to the job agency todae (and few days ago) and was telling us how rude some ppl were... and weird qns tt dey asked her. thr is even some test to test how fast ur speed is (for typing). and being her the pro... got 91% accuracy.
Ok, but the main thing is ...

She, a 10 O-level holder with 8 distinctions cant find jobs.. yet me a mere Psle qualification can find faster den her.

LOLX.

really so funny.. but i think if she really find one.. pay wld prob be better den mine. lik duh..

ok.. signing off now. nidda continue my hw =/
( If noe i really will be working... would haf started DAYS ago.. sian.)

8:15pm

Add some colours.

todae got so many communications going on .. smses and calls.
i dint noe i wld be so tired... rested at home todae..slept frm 12plus to 3. haha.. n its so weird now adays. even when im havin naps, i still dream. and dey are weird =/ and my room is like so irritating! or rather.. it has been the same all along.. jus tt im in sch only. u noe wad? i cant sleep in.. i really cant cos by 8:30 (latest) the morning sun would be shining directly at my face. stupid loh. unless its raining and cloudy in the morning.. hai im so deprive of sleep ..

anw.. i got awaken up by an sms frm my junior (at3) telling me tt thrs trg at safra at 5.. i was like. Huh? Siao! im sleeping can... and so i ignored e sms n continue trying to sleep while another one coming in. this time its frm Jj who was complaining the same.. haha and by tt time i was wondering if the any of the 5 of us go. bla bla bla.. afta exchanges of calls i guess none is going. + im genuinely tired.. my legs are like permanently cramp since last week. dint even haf the faintest interest to stand still for more than 1 hour shooting. and now it came to me.. didnt coach say there will be no more trgs this week??? sian. bluff ppl ...

Jus now the noel ppl called. Lol... an i errh decided not to work anymore. i wonder if dey called kat afta i turn them down.. i dont tink i got the time anymore.. + hw! im gonna start cutting up newspapers later... really must start man. november is lik gone le la. so fast... and i don feel like i enjoyed myself at all so far. haiz. holidays ~~~

yesterdae went out wif my mom. we went to the skin centre for my appointment. having eczema is so irritating and troublesome. its like a curse and till date there is no cure at all. so i haf to live with it all my life... well at least its not fatal. but my hands are recovering le. Only tt my THUMBPRINT STILL HVN GROW BACK yet. arughhhhhh. told the doc abt the immigratin authortiy thingy and shes decided to help me write a letter to them. and so i wun be illegal nxt yr. haha. somehow.. i feel tt it will not ever grow ... =/
Hmm afta tt. went orchard to shop wif my mom.. finally bought some clothes.. but becos of tt im really broke le. and i still haf so many things tt i wanna buy. maybe i shldnt turn down noel but then again... i don haf the luxury of time. + hw + studies.

Lol.. but here im blogging abt making time for schstuff.. i doubt i will really carry them out and by the time im starting to regret.. its time to prepare for Sec One Orientation again... -_-' and ever since im sec1 (end of yr going sec2) i dislike sec one orientation. so many details to plan for and we're gonna be busy lik shit on the actual day.. and wads worse. sec1 being rude and don appreciate any of this and i tink each yr de attitude is getting worse. .. and lookin at the cut off point this yr ( freaking 233!). some may be wondering wads happening wif temasek secondary... and i cant help remembering wad mr chooi said at our last lesson wif him. bad sch culture. how true ...

201th post

yay finally change blogskin liao...


I like this! so retro...

but the scrollbar kinda hard to see also... its tt strip of white line. i tink clicking frm the top wld be easier.


so tired todae..

Monthly shoot suck. only shot 359 -- how pathetic is this. I noe i can definitely do better. and i duno why e heck do i feel nervous halfway thru the shoot. lik siao.... when i do ever feel nervous abt some mthly shoot? i tink i led myself to be distracted by the person beside me. stupid. grrr.

--

for once and for all... let me say tt i do not like to be left out.
who likes to?
im not an attention seeking brat.
neither am i an in introverted freak who doesnt speaks..and try to blend in.
i guess u wld noe my point frm this .
i could only think 3 reasons why it is happening
1st- u sensed.. but chose to ignore
2nd- u really do not know why im feeling lik that.. (kinda weird. i thot its quite common sense)
3rd- u tink its my fault tt i did try to talk and play wif u all

which is like siao lah. at that point and moment... i truly feel tt i do not fit in.

u can asked me.. why kick up a big fuss? just relax lah... forget abt it.
reason: i really hate the feeling. and its not the first time its happening. n i did voice abt it once. (mayb not u but definitely one of them). so yea.. can u imagine wad im feelin?

and i tink ... ive hidden much things in silence.
so why this?

i can tell u... i dont nid this shit to make myself more miserable.


and last but not least.. i truly does not want to offend anybody.
jus some of my thots and feeliings...
( tt is - if u care)

Bam! - I feel down again

yp commented tt i seems to sound down on my blog. hmm.. i thot i sounded more feisty den sad. Haha. ok.. but nvm. ure like half-correct cos im kinda down now. donch noe why too... its just tt kind of sudden feelings. and some ppl called it mood swings...

aiya. but mood swing wad i also dunoe. maybe sometimes i shld stop coming to msn.

oh yes... i guess i dint really lose all my music. those in wmp are still intact.. but the rest... are gone. But NVM - cos i one VERY SUPER GOOD SENIOR WHO IS SO KIND TO SEND ME SONGS AND DL SOME. Yay ah soon! ure so nice!!!!! =D heheeex

omgosh. i jus love michelle branch. her songs are jus so spiritual ... so full of meaning .. its kinda feeds the soul. hahh..to me at least. Breathe is very nice and some more well knowns ones. i tink... i may just buy her album one day. oh yea... i want an MP3 player! i cant stand long bus rides w/o music.. and ppl not sharing! grrrr. lol. basically i tink i cant live without music. and im too poor to support them.. sorry..

tmr will be my last piano lesson. teacher having a long break in dec... haha. frens out thr wun nid to hear me ranting on practising my pieces animore. Lol. esp fri nites ~~

i think i wld be staying home tmr... good thing too ba. i have so many books to keep me company :)) and of cos hw. oh man.. better start some tmr..

haiz. days are passing too fast. and we barely can catch up wif one another..

im like Tired like shit lah.. or rather. its my legs.

lets see for this week -- mon stayed home.. tues went out for a while to the lib.. wed stupid air rifle.. thurs aR.. Fri aR meeting + meeting wif ps to eat + going to cherie workplace + practisiing piano.. sAt piano lesson & dunoe yet.. SUNday air rifle monthly shoot and hooray!! end of air rifle trainings- the end-

grrrr. today is NOT a good day ... but it was nice at the end tho.

i will just briefly say out everything... cos i tink im suppose to sleep now... Haizzzzzzz` im really letting out a long sigh. i don understand why things tt make me angry just happen in one straight row. all just like tt. i dunoee lah. i kinda give up thinking why some things just happen to me and only me. stupidd ridiculous stuffs. ok.. sidetrack abit. im so .... angry.. again. and this time.. its at my coach.. wadever la. i hate tt kind of attitude shes giving me alright? Lik,.. its not my fault la. ITS NOT. but why am i the one who has to swallow it down bitterly. no. it shld be grudgingly. Let me tell u the TOP THREE THINGS TT ULTRA PISS ME OFF. no.1 - being maligned. no.2 - being scolded for things tt i did not do. no.3 being treatly unfairly. They are the ultimate. and if u noticely closely.... these are basically the things wich ive been complaining non-stop on my blog. but im still complaining... yea... i guess it does help me abit to get it over ....
but ... im stil very unhappy now. and worse of all... still have to go safra tmr.. =/ it betta not be Cdans again... tt place jus give me bad memory of todae. Damn.

Lol. this is jus so contradicting to wad ive typed 2 posts away.... but well. this is life. but i cant say im nt disappointed at times... and it kinda spoil my day todae man. ehh but the nite kinda compensates it all. yah cheryl.. i really dint noe ure joking. dint even tok to u.. how i noe. Lol... ok in the end me kat jovi cheryl and cherie ate tgt at crystal jade. jovi and cheryl are gossiping of wad dey saw of today's grad nite.. cherie is busy pressing kat for ahem. details. HAHA.

and afta tt.. jovi and i went to meet flo to pei her for dinner. eh we c her eat only... lol. and thanks ... the talk prolly made up for all the things tt happen todae. i really like talks... + its in the nite. so cooling. just exactly wad i like abt being out in the nite....

k. i need to sleep now. all i want for tmr is to be a normal day. strong feelings free. ive nth more to ask. but im really damn sian now la...
haiz. okok. i will jus go sleep. nites-

I LOST EVERYTHING




my stupid brother. GRRRRRRRR.
AGAIN. REFORMATED MY COM WITHOUT MY KNOWLEDGE. GO AND DIE LA NOW ALL MY SONGS ARE GONE. 1 WHOLE YR OF SONGS. HOW AM I TO RECOVER EVERYTHING???

STUPID.







arughhhhh.
sian la. my com is so brand new now. i nidda personalise it all over again.
my songs .... :(
haiz.

anw, hh nvr pangseh me la. Lol. in the end we still went to bedok lib.. its so cool thr. much beta den tampines and pasir ris wan. and my library card.. haiz. don wan to say le la. say already im pissed all over again.

and this is to CYweili : eh you don misunderstood wad kat say la. its not wad you think. and i wanted to online ytd.. but the com kept failing on me. but u noe this kind of things veh complicated wan... lik you don even noe whether go out is confirm not. and i thot u haf np todae. + flo always hav church stuff. and jus so coincidentally, my senior talked to me a few days ago... we really very long nvr see her le (nt tt we're putting u all in secondary) but its either now or the end of dec we see her (or so she tells me) and we're having trgs later. Bla... its getting more luan la. and i don noe wad u all say ytd also. so yea. this is my part of the story.


hope u see it later. or we may meet later on.
bye``

Its Raining!!

nowadays the weather are really cold... not tt its a bad thing but it kinda dampen the spirits. don ya think so?
Suppose to go out todae... but hh pangeseh me. she's still sleeping!!! arhhhhhhh ok. nvm. Lol .. jus went to cherie blog. i really laugh at all her recent entries. so funny.. and its so her. LOL. we chat(ed) ytd.. i miss going out wif her (and she said she miss me too! ) but her life is really so busy - sp`drivinglicense` jobs .... she was telling me to work but started luffing tt im underage -.-'' ..blahh nvm. just in 3mths time i wld be 16. some sort of legal age? haha. but i noe it will be more fun hanging out wif her.. and maybe takin up the same jobs. =)
eh.. but thinking back ... time really flies. i still remember the first time i went wif her n kat to starbucks. i was only 13. and now.. we are already planning wad to do nxt yr. lol.. da jia dou zhang da le. i cant imagine being in her age now. 18.. wad wld i be doing den? i dunoee. i dun even noe whr i wanna go. sighh.

rite.. theres suppose to be a chalet todae. but its kinda... gone case la. so many ppl isnt going. and i don see the point going w/o bbq.. lik wad we r gonna do thr? and i don even feel close to the class.. so naturally i rather nt go. and i tink.. jovita is nuaing at home now. wif nice fan-fics.. ha

i wanna change da blogskin... but cant really find one now. hmm. and i think my links like very messy.. LoL`
i kinda wasted my day yesterdae... so i guess i mus do sth productive todae. like clearing my room or start doing hw. =S

shes got an uncanny ability to piss me. easily.
oh. and to be truthful.. ive had enuf since long ago.

just leave me alone. pls.

=X

Oh my.
can u bliv it? i actaully starting to like my cca more and more :)
- air condition environment. - improvements!! [ i actually shot 370/400 Lol. when im lik forever stuck at 348. pengzz]- funny ppl! sometimes... ure all jus make my day.. haha. ( the old crowd.. and the new ones. )
and a day jus pass... nicely.
i really don mind going for trainings now le. if got ppl acc and its at safra or cdans. ( not sch plzzz) Heh. and partly of cos.... i don get to see a particular S person for quite a long time... zzzz
Lol.
Okay todae.. pengsoon joined us. i like wait veh long for him to finish shooting den my turn sia... haha. but rifleno.TWO rox! i dunoe why coach lik discouraging me to use tt ... but at least my performance show now . haix. and im lik senior can!! i use it for 3 yrs... how can i jus stop lik tt? =S. hmm.. anw played craps wif kat ps jj and gab todae... Lol. and having 969 is really good... or else we wld haf to waste 1 hr talking mrt. haha. went to Long John to eat afta tt...
think most prob nxt week will haf one more trainings ba..

Fri - finish trg quite late... den went to orchard to change my braces wif huihoon. heh.. lik so long nvr c her le. i change mine to orange and purple. woots! i luv orange. haha. okay..den went ard to walk.. and sumhow i jus felt damn tired tt day. i even fell asleep on the mrt... and i came back and slept frm 6 to 9. ultra tiredness.

Sat- but tts not all. went to c da doc inthe morning... joined flo and gang ard 6pm (ehh im lik so late ..) to buy presents for kat and jewel. but in the end (as usual) we cant buy anything.. kat's wants is jus too difficult to meet la ( a nice way to phrase it. ha!) and jewel haf almos everything tt i cud think of. so yea... most prob will do it one day... (eh like duhh. lol)
ate dinner at cineleisure.. but it was stil kinda early so min jovi me decide to catch a movie at tampines.. ( the rest dunoe go whr.) and we watched just like heaven! which is SUPER SUPER NICE! at first... when everybody was kinda enthu abt tt movie.. i thot ok its nice but jus a typical romance movie. but im like so wrong.. (again) its very funny. especially the part when shes instructing him to save the guy.. LOL. and touching too... deir luv. ahhhhh. but supernatural. haas.

hmm.. this is roughly wad ive been doing e past few days. im sure alot of ppl also haf fun too. blog k! =p and im lik.. really tired. esp my legs.. lik ran for the whole day lik tt. lol ... prolly is the prolong walking.

another week is starting... but i guess it wun be as fun-filled as this.
tata`

Ok, forget abt everything.

im suppose to sleep now... tmr stil going for safra training. but ...

i jus bathe la. hair veh wet.. how to sleep? Lol

hmm. i find it weird tt i actaully lik the trainings nowadays. haha. cos its becos of trgs tt we.. go out. :) thurs.. fri and now sun.
have been going out non-stop for 3 days. later too... but im not complaining. i;d rather be out and about den stay at home. so boring.. (well for me den).
the only bad thing is tt my feet feel damn sore... and i get tired easily.
lol. i tink .. i haf to sleep soon. stil needa shoot tmr... and it has been a realy long day. will blog abt the outings nxt time. =)

nites~

im sorry.
thx wei for talking to me now....
but i really cant take it animore.
wad the hell is the problem ????
WAD THE HELL IS THE PROBLEM?
why?
why do i haf to face this kind of shit.
i hate them.. sumtimes i really do.
.
you always think u are right. always. why cant u look into my point? why cant u jus give me some attention? is tt really so difficult.
i feel hurt..
nobody understands me. NOBODY.
maebe... frm the start im all alone.
i feel defeated. im tired... tired frm facing these ev.day.
i wanna giv up on u all. . .
u forced me too.
i tried.

u noe wad?
im tired of arguing alr...
i don even wanna talk animore. it just make me sick.
very sick.


somtimes. u'd rather not know.

yea yeay ea~~ =D

im NO MORE mobbing at home feeling damn listless and sianz le!

Okay... firstly went to meet kat mr cuthbert in sch to take the equipment and stuff. wanted to check the remedial results but dey are still not out yet =S. the ride to yishun safra was dizzy... but i wasnt sure whether it is due to motion not cos i nvr haf tt prob be4. hm.. reach thr abt 3plus and started shooting. Having trgs in safra is very shuangs cos there is air-condition! we all in sch train is really sweat like hell man... haha =) so got nice opportunities me n kat normally wun pon de. Lol ... ok we ended at 5 plus. and the ride back to sch was as dizzy as jus now. and this time... kat was complaining to me the exact things too! so... ahem. wad isit really wrong abt mr bert driving? *scratch head
but i noe i prolly wld wan to avoid as much as possible to take his car again... my head hurts lik hell afta i got out.

anw.. we reached sch at 6 plus... and dont feel lik going home. heh. so we called jovi for fun and turns out flo and her were at kallang netball court. so zhun sia... dey wana go for dinner so we join them. but kat and me waited for them lik... damn long la. (sorry jovi. lol) In the end.. we decide to dine at pizza hut since all us were super hungry. the pizzas are so fullfilling :) and the best thing is... WE MET A SUPER NICE EX-TEMASEKIAN!. hahahahah hes one of the waiter thr... a malay guy and he told us he was once in temasek while serving us. Hes very friendlyand tell us many good deals. and u noe wad???? He actually gaf us a 25% discount voucher which (we saw on the paper) was suppose to be the staff perks. isnt he very nice???? we like.. so shock but touch at the same time. LOL. there is actually such nice ex-tmskians.
Haha.. so in return we decide to write a feedback form for him =))

hai.. so nice rite? nxt time mus be as nice to other ppl. hahaha. ok.. i think im signing off. tmr stil got cca! in the morning sumore... yawns* .

nite...

Chalet, lunch, library mishaps


Heys.`
im back from chalet like.. 2 days ago. but was too tired to blog anith..
this time round thr is lesser ppl but stil not bad x) we stayed over too. haaa.. the bbq was nice but im getting sick of chicken wings le.. Lol. i ate some on sat and ate even more on sun.. blaa. after finished eating we went up and gambled for awhile before heading to bowling. the last time i bowl was at east coast during oct.. and den ytd. the game was fun la.. haha. dint noe the guys got style seh.. Ok den we went back ard 11 plus i think.. and started gambling again.. chit chat and stuffs stil abt 4 plus and some of us started dozing off.. Lol. i kept waking up and drift back to sleep again. hmm.. think i slept like 4 hrs like tt hahs.. the next day we went for breakfast and another 2 rounds of bowling before going back... i reached home abt 2 and i was so tired tt i slept till 6 plus. i noe i veh brief but i kinda cant rmb the details le. Lol... the chalet overall was fun but i think it wld be more fun if more ppl come... like huihoon. haha :)

todae.. i woke up at 10 plus which is very un-me considering tt my avg time is like 8am. i was eating my breakfast at 11sth till jc called me and i was like Oh shit!! i forgotten tt im meeting her at 12 for lunch... :S and so i quickly abandoned my breakfast...got changed and dash out of the house. in the end i made it in time but was feeling abit full... we walked ard tm before going to yoshinoya for lunch.. haiz normally i wld be happily eating the beef bowl but half way eating i really feel damn bloated. and so i ate 2 meals within 1 hr... kewl hor. LoL. but nonetheless, i stil feel happy going out for lunch :) we chatted ... wah this gal really so shuang can. she recited to me how packed her week is... mon- some sch stuffs. tues - meet me! den off for chalet and staying over. wed- haf to set off early wif her family to malacca for the whole day... thurs- cca/fren bdae/ hpmovie. fri- piano lesson. sat- cca. and sunday... shes flying off to taiwan!!! wad the!!! if this is nt shaung... what is it man. hai.. and i suddenly feel so no life sia.. Lol
but after talking to her todae... i realise tt even ppl whom u really envy and admire haf their own problems too.. sighed. so maybe life is fair? but i doubt so..
arh aniwae.. i realise thr is so many chalets going on ... jc having one todae.. and my brother went for his yesterday. haha... no wonder my mom was like saying 1 come back, 1 go. and my poor sister is still mugging hard for her A levels.. hai i see her study until so chamn i also feel stressed for her. hmm... but its gonna be over this week.. altho we don really go out tgt but i hope it will end quickly too cos my mom only seems to be in the mood for shopping afta my sis finished her exams. Lol. speaking of shopping.. i saw so many nice things todae esp. Fox clothes!! im really crazy over tt shop... arhhhhhh. cant wait to shop... but it will most probably be nxt week.
oh, and i suddenly remembered jovi telling me on sat tt she wanna talk abt her trip to shanghai to us face to face. but... frm mon to thurs dey are having psl camp and me n cheryl was thinking if she can still rmb afta one week. LOL. somehow, i just feel tt everyone ard me is busyyyy...

anw, i was feelin kinda piss jus now. afta leaving tm, i went to the library alone and i took my bro library card cos i noe mine was fined and cant be used. i don haf a cashcard either. and so... i went up browsing the books. finally chose 3 good ones and i thot i cud finally enjoy good stories over the week BUT ....



It turn out my bro freaking library card had been heavily fined too and the transaction cant be done!



i was abit stun.. since when do my nice'ol brother borrow books ?
and so... i went down to the transaction station to check my brother's statistics and i was 'shock' again.







- you can pay the library fines through ur ezlink card-
(and NETS but since i do not haf tt... it doesnt apply now)


but im like...grrrr. if only i knew it can be paid by ezlink card.. i would haf brought down mine instead of my bro. and guess wad? he had more fines den me... 7.50

-.-'



wad the!!! hes not even home so i cant ask him.. arughhh. and i noe im probably very sukuhh to not noe the new and updated ways of paying fines. =/

hais..and so i had to grudgingly put down 3 gd books and get out of the library empty-handed.
(btw, i cant use my ezlink to borrow cos i lost it once)

nvm...
at least now i know. and after u read this.. you prolly wun be the next libary-fines-sukuh
Lol.


im bored ...

What An Experience

Omgosh... IM SO WRONG!!
i thot it was gonna be boring... but it turn out 2be very fun :D Hahahaaha.

went to toa payoh somewhere wif kat jj and cs and coach... usual stuffs. helping out wif da ppl. at first thr was a big commotion when the residents were confused over the lining up... wah its like out of control man!!! and so luan... but thankfully dey manage to clear it fast. den we started using those tapes to cordon the area. i use to thot it was easy... until todae lol. its quite difficult.. + the friction on ur hands.. pain lehh. lol. ok den.. we went back to da headquarters and those some packing stuffs. but we quick slack la... we let the other batch of students coach brought to do most of the work and instead we played wif jiekai!!! jiekai is my coach son... so long nvr c him le... and hes also veh funny. -- qn: which room does not have doors and windows ??? (wana noe the ans ask me)
Ok. after tt we started to be lik coolie like tt. - the things tt dey ask us to carry is so HEAVY!!! really lorh... hahaa. den this few weeks coach kip asking us to do physical trg.... todae is lik hiong man. we carry, run, jump, sweat... ev.th also got. but its really fun wandering ard.. haha. den the scdf ppl were ard giving demonstrations. the common ones - using the extinguisher, showing the fire safety, games, cpr etc etc. Lol, ( to ps and kel) rmb the colouring competition?? the pictures this time is like exactly the same !!! funny sia... wonder why dey nvr change after one solid yr. lol. the new thing tt dey added this year is a skit of terrorist disruptions ( the fire fighters are like so cool!! ) annd rides - got the mini scdf engine ( paiseh i duno wads tt called) that one quite shiok... he drive veh fast cos its suppose to be for them... Lol and thrs the ladder ride where dey raise the ladder to save those trapped in high-rise flat... but we did not get to play tt. The skit rite.. Jj was one of the actors... but very minor la. the rest of us were like laughing and laughing.. hahaaa.

I think fire-fighters are so cool. u all got time mus go learn those safety -measures kae. or i can teach u. hahahaa jus kidding. the thing ended ard 7 ... took the mrt and reach bedok at 8 and ate wif my family.
i feel so tired todae.. but nontheless satisfied =) and i tink i wana start physical trg soon.. cos coach kip toking to us abt it and i feel mus energised afta running ard. Haaaa.

oh ya. i wanted to blog abt yesterdae. YES NO MORE REMEDIALS... woo-hooo!!!! afta our trainings, we went to the food expo makan-ing.. and coem to think of it, i tink we are very weird. Lol.. ppl go food expo is keep on walking and trying new stuffs while we stowed away at the back and chat for damn long... i kinda forgot wad we talked abt but i like the feeling when all us were talking. it feels so good to talk it out... andi seriously think all us shld do more of these. going out for lunch and dinner ... chit-chating. LOL.

rite, i tink this is a long post. hahaaa.
u noe wads the priviledge of being one of 2/2 ?


we always have chalet
LOL. cya guys` ~

sian la.
somebody should SHUT UP abt naggins .
it drive me nuts when i kip hearing thiings over and over again.
grrrr.

i know i seem kinda moody nowadays. i wanted to blog abt some happy things but so coincidentally.... i just recive one bad news.

HAIS>

aniwae.. i gonna do some sort of 'cip thing' wif my coach later. at first i was bored. or rather, i tink i will be bored. but, the main reason i going is because i want to give my coach mian zi.

SO JUZ GO LA.

OK.
BYEE

Good advice doesn't always come from a sage source -- there's wisdom in youth.

somehow, i just get inspiration from horoscopes x)
this whole week... (tho it hvn pass) i felt im isolating myself... ha
i wenthome straight after sch as early as i culd... i guess i juz cant wait to get home. home - it just cant be any better. u can sleep as long as u could. can do whatever u want. can go out anitime. arhhhhhhhh. i just cant wait to get my freedom back. hurhurs. i don care whether im coming back for the reexams not la i just want this whole week to end quicky. besides tt, jovi will be back frm shanghai.
oh ya, i wan to thank those who talk to me ytd... thanks. :) im okay now.
who is the one who can control how i feel abt myself? me, myself and i.
and if i decided not to think otherwise , detractors cant bring me down.
and its probably time to put my advices on to myself. haha.come to think of it.. this is funny.

i tink i do need my personal space. i nid to spend quality time wif myself. ive so much things tt i wanna do and its stil left undone. sighed. after this week. after this week. i will do it.


theres jus too many superficial people ard ...

Sighed. where shld i start?
im surprise at myself too... somehow i dun even feel a tinge bit of anger in me anymore. instead, its replaced by sth hollow. right, it just prove tt im over it, and i made a promise im not going to care abt it anymore. after typing this post full of shit.

chemistry test. i swear, upon my dignity. my pride, and my character tt I did NOT cheat. WE 'RE INNOCENT. its just a plain coincidence tt both of us put 136 alright?? i did not know how to do the question so i just write any no. tt come in my head. lame as it be... but tts really the TRUTH. can u imagine tt anger and helplessness tt i endure during the whole chemistry lesson? i felt helpless and angry cos i noe nobody in their right mind would believe tt we did not cheat. even our friends .. yes dey did what dey are suppose to do as a friend but i really doubt any of them would believe tt we did not cheat until i tell them myself in a very agitated voice. and wads worse... tt tay teacher only mention my name and ask why i copy my fren? its like what the hell????! why must it be ME who cheated and not the other way round?? Look, im not trying to get my friend into trouble or wishing tt shes in my shoe instead of me enduring all this shits. but hello? isnt this downright unfair? her unfairness is plain obvious. if she wana do anything.. fine go ahead and scold and embarass both of us.. but why isit only me ? I cant but help feeling that... aniwae.. its so darn EMBARASS. and i really really DID NOT DISCUSS THE QN WIF HER, LET ALONE COPY AND CHEAT.

As hard as it is for her to believe the UNBELIEVABLE COINCIDENCE...it is also as hard for me to shoulder all the blame and embarassment, which i swear (again) to my name tt I DID NOT COMMIT THE SO-CALLED CHEATING.
wad the hell is happening?

i dunch noe. i really DONT. and admist all the infuriations, i felt a tinge of sadness for being maligned. itsjus so ..... i bet if u were the one u will feel just as injustified as me.
coming back for remedials?? wow.

i came back during the holidays, studied for my test, and all i get back is this

blogblogblogblogblogblogblogblogblogblogblogblogblog

i jus finished eating a melted-choco muffin. :p
chocolates are like the best past-time food mannn.. but its so sinful. hah, but nvm. kinda not obsessed wif weight now... cos i hvn been shopping to buy clothes. Lol.

im lik chatting wif jen and flo now. dey lik damn funny... LoL n flo stil scared tt jen will scold her at the chalet. hahaha! gd lo u all.. got 3E chalet. i dun reckon 3N will be as close now.
den ya..i saw florence display pic and i was shocked. her niece lik 1 yr old nia.. but seems so big to me leh. or maybe i have the wrong perception tt babies at one year old shle be small?? LOL.
anw.. we are still debating whether jenifer eye is tian sheng so black wan or use eyeliner....
hahs. if yp also online..den dey will form a 3E crowd.. n i will be the xtra!
lalala. sumtimes u all lik complaining 3e boring or wad.. but i tink if im in tt class i will be quite happy cos i got 3 good frens thr. :) btw note to yp: urall chalet must stock up alot of food.. cos jen ( as u noe) and florence eat alot...ALOT!! LOL

ok went for both physics and chemistry remedial. mubarak is really a good teacher.. too bad hes not out teacher. haiz. but its quite stressful leh.. we only like haf 1 test to determine whether we shld continue for next week. lik wadahell. but plus chem im having 3 tests this week...
rite enuf bout it. its stil MONDAY. and im having blues now... cos im stil schooling.. blahzz.

i was kinda busy this weekend... kinda. but absolutely tired. on sat... went for the stupid open house. and mind, its really STUPID. The no. of ppl who wan is really scarce. im practically walking ard the whole time rather den staying at the stall. n, me n kat played netball wif samantha n jovita. and as expected, the two of them are very funny.. lik only haf dey all type de ppl tt really can make me luff n luff n luff..... hahs. and thru them, i realise the problems tt dey are r facing.. the juniors and seniors things. typical isnt it. and i must say.. i feel tt both of us having the same plight. no bonding ever since their yr. maybe its only our cca, i dunoe but i c the co members all quite close la. so cant say its completely tt batch. hmm dunoe la. anw, toking abt cca. i really want to say sth. out loud here. I TOTALLY TOTALLY DISLIKE SOH. there;s even time when i really hate him. and i feel tt my attitude towards him can nvr change ...ever again. even toking to him face to face now makes me feel dreadful and sick. really... tt kind of feeling on a teacher is still a first time. i dunoe wads my level of toleration.... worse come to worse i can juz 'resign' frm my post. i hate the way he make us work la... and his sarcasm. other ppl.. lik jovi may find him nice to us or funny.. but i dont. i really dont. and sumhow.. i tink practically everyone dont like him. great isnt it. how can we work well if we dislike him? and i totally give up saying anithing now. last time i might still play enuthu abit.. giving ideas here and there but now i just don bother . im having the boh chup attitude and i tink soh also abit don like me now. whatever... its a mutual thing.

alrite. getting abit too ji dong. but im surprise tt i can still remember my feelings and thots ...for 2 days. hahs. hmm yea... sunday me n flo went to meet jovita and lend her jeans n pants... shes really damn shuang la i like dreadfully waiting this whole week to pass by while shes happily shanghai-ing in shanghai and spending 2 days at korea!!! so nice.... sighh. and i still find it veh funny ... cheryl reaching home after her trip to shanghai and other parts of china and jovita immediately leave on the exact same day. Lol.. i guess next will be jiemin.. leaving at dec.

jen jus told us tts there is a whole load of work at edulearn. =/
seriously, i dint even bother to check

i feel sick now. my cough n flu have not subside... and i think a fever may sprang on me soon. damn la. i thot ive recovered competely after the final year exam..
haiz. i better go rest now. and do some revision.

-signing off -

If i could, if i would - i will juz force you out of my life.
sorry, no goodbyes but i had enuf of you.

i guess i still have the right to be with who i want eh?


Anyaway, as usual, went to school todae. *Yawns. practically dragged myself out of bed. got waken up by hh sms. went to meet her at tamp intc. reach sch. go physics lab and have chemistry lesson (contradicting sia) lol. finish lesson. went down to the range for shooting. discover some changes. hate to wear the suit. so hot. finish training. meet hh again. go tm wif her and kat. eat pastamania!. realise tt e 3 of us are kinda lame. felt damn hungry and weaken after trg. feel tired now. feel like sleeping.

blah. okay. generally... i feel tt todae is kinda OK. I tink tt i prefer mrs tay... to chooi. dunoe leh. but tink she teach not bad. haha. hmm... i guess i have to spend my weekend to revise chemistry and physics for all the upcoming tests next week. sucky rite? but if i can get >60 i will be a free person once more. haii. everybody all feel damn sian abt it . though i noe its for our own good.. but im barely in holiday mood now. :(

Haiz. i feel so tied down ... by things tt i don even wanna do. kinda straightforward rite? i want to go out wif my family oso cant man. and tmr.. got some stupid openhouse. i juz don feel like doing my duties animore... a terrible exco member i am.. i noe ...
i cant take it animore. i feel so tired.
and tmr morning im havin my piano lesson too. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

the more i type, the more crappy i feel. so yah.. im goin to end here now.

Ok - Credits to ZmC for helping me to clear the toolbox.
now can see better le hor? LoL.

aniwaes... todae is like sai la.. stupid remedials. its BEYOND BORING. its... i haf no words to describe. but honestly, i dont fancy going for it anymore. and next week is like.. worse man. not only consecutive days, but consecutive hours!. physics. dang. and not to mentiontests tests tests. sumhow, i feel tt i shld haf followed flo. - give parents letter and just go for the re-exams at the end of the year. haha.. but she got reasons la. i don haf. but stil can fake rite? haiz. fat hope.

im kinda... lik not very into the mood todae. hh still thot i depress... actaully.. true la, abit. i suddenly feel so sian now... and so un-fun. blah. and the thot of enduring more remedials.. pengx. how i wish im more inclined to the science subs...
to all the ppl hu do not nid to come : ure so lucky

and now, im all alone in the house. and i tink i wun have ani dinner tonight..

damn, lousy, day.


Post: oh ya. took me quite a mean feat to put up the lyrics. but i just totally luv this two songs. craig david (see : Out) and nelly -fly away. and ya the links. sorry ar guys.. i nid help. i nid to rip ur links. LoL. but currently.. nobody online now can help me...

maybe later.

byee~

yes :) October is finally over . no more stupid exams. no more muggings. i feel so free!!
whahaha
I play like siao todae ... i only reached at home at11 plus. went for supper. :) its really fun man. this is wad i call Life. i finally feel alive again. hahaha. and thrs a list of things tt i wana do this two months. 2005 has been shit to me. but not this last two months. im gonna make the most out of it. =) must play until tong kuai den nxt yr will feel more refreshed. i want to have tt kind of refresh feeling in me again... its like a new you but not exactly changing urself ya noe? Lol. ok.. maybe only i can understand wad im tokin abt.. but im actaully quite excited at all the prospects now. ya even ccas and remedials cant bring me down now. lolx. (not emo-ing le =)

i change my blogskin le.. nice ma? actually, im quite tired of the old skin long ago.. but owas no time to change. or too lazy. haha. and this time its a white skin!! and orange. i luv orange now~~ high five yp^. =D heh. kinda got the inspiration to get an orange skin frm you. orange seems so bright and cheerful. and im re-linking alot of ppl now.. + putting the tagboard back..so ppl tag kae??? Lol

ehh stil got wad ar. okay. the plans... (at least for now) 1) shop shop shop 2) movies entertainment bla bla 3) i wana go bowling again! 4) go sentosa 5) harry potter books! it shld be the priority now cos im reading it 6) Dan brown books 7) play mahjong wif my relatives 8) holiday assignments 9) cca? 10) pianopiano 11) more and more outings. 12) spend quality time wif all my frens. ALL. yes :)
i wanna keep myself very very busy. only den do i feel tt ive spend my time fully, happily and tiring-ly. got tt kind of man zu gan. haha. oh yes.. i want to cut my hair.. lose weight bla bla. im getting fatter and fatter each day. arugh!!!

i dunoe wad i shld do now leh. cos i really don feel like sleeping. hahaa.. such a fun day . i practically spend my whole day out man. and i don feel tired. hahaha. now onling.. crapping wif ZmC. i wonder how long i can stand..since my highest record of spending online is 4am. haaa..
Rite.. u guys are all graduating. don miss u all is fake wan la. but good luck for all ur Os. =D
oh yes.. don forget senior gathering. i miss cherie lik hell (Lol)

Byee!