Monthly shoot suck. only shot 359 -- how pathetic is this. I noe i can definitely do better. and i duno why e heck do i feel nervous halfway thru the shoot. lik siao.... when i do ever feel nervous abt some mthly shoot? i tink i led myself to be distracted by the person beside me. stupid. grrr.

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for once and for all... let me say tt i do not like to be left out.
who likes to?
im not an attention seeking brat.
neither am i an in introverted freak who doesnt speaks..and try to blend in.
i guess u wld noe my point frm this .
i could only think 3 reasons why it is happening
1st- u sensed.. but chose to ignore
2nd- u really do not know why im feeling lik that.. (kinda weird. i thot its quite common sense)
3rd- u tink its my fault tt i did try to talk and play wif u all

which is like siao lah. at that point and moment... i truly feel tt i do not fit in.

u can asked me.. why kick up a big fuss? just relax lah... forget abt it.
reason: i really hate the feeling. and its not the first time its happening. n i did voice abt it once. (mayb not u but definitely one of them). so yea.. can u imagine wad im feelin?

and i tink ... ive hidden much things in silence.
so why this?

i can tell u... i dont nid this shit to make myself more miserable.


and last but not least.. i truly does not want to offend anybody.
jus some of my thots and feeliings...
( tt is - if u care)