Haixx`
its tuesday now..
4 days hav passed..
i've been lazin at home for the past 3 days doin nuthing..
i'm realli bored to tears..
online also nuthing to do.. besides bloggin. so yea u can xpect me bloggin mani craps these whole week..unless of cos iF this com is going to work against me like wad it did todae. humph! i re-start until wana die..

wad shld i do. wad shld i do. wad shld i do.
omgg...
i feel tt..
Life seems meaningless now.. without goals to achieve. without things to look forward. without work to do.
i'm just waiting for time to pass away from me everyday...
well.. okay. thr's actually work for me to do. but i jus dun hav e motivation to start my hw. to finish e storiebk. to finish my piano pieces n to clear up my darn messsy room. wad's wrong with me. i dunoe.. mayb i'm suffering frm an unconscious illness tts eating up my sense of reality.. or recovering a shock which i, couldn't even feel it. i'm going crazy. i can't see in a perspective of what i should. i can't feel the way i used to feel. i wan to break away from this phase.
Nah..forget it. its just my imagination working overtime. but i discover sth scarie abt me. lol.. usually when u hav nth to do. u would jus find sth to entertain urself rite? but its different for me.. i jus kept on eating n eating n eating until i'm so horrified with myself... omg. i'm positive thr's sth wrong with me. but the prob is... i dunoe wad izit. the only symptom i could associate myself with is depression [well, basically thats e onli illness i noe tt binge.] but. huhh?? depression?

aniwae... jen went off on sunday. she said she will call me. but so far i receive no calls frm her.. not tt i really itched for it. [ u noe e bill...haha] but of cos, yea i wan to hear from her too.. thr's sth i hvn told her. n thr's sth she hvn told me too. =S lol.. ya we both owe each other sth.. i wonder wad's she gonna tell me. stupid lorhhh. keep me in suspense. tt dae at e airport dun wana sae. haiiz. . . let's wait. . .
by the way... i dunoe y ppl keep tinkin i will take lit. lol.. got 4 person le worh. nvm..if i had ani inspirations..i would post it on e blog. meanwhile, i had a luvvelorrnn fren who nid my immediate attention. so cya.

-* thrs so much things i wan to sae to u ...... but i guess thr isn't a nid now *-