went to take back report book todae... n surprisingly i pass everything! LoL
uhh. wait. due to the moderation of chemistry and the help of my CAs (phew) .... i pass. but ya.. of cos my pass r those C5 C6 type. but heck la. wads done is done. jus thankful tt i did not hav F9 or E8. however. i noe i did fail one sub... E maths but becos ms morni dunoe why keyed the ca results as our sa1... our whole class seems to pass e maths wif flying colours. LoL. error la. but u noe wad. after counting the marks myself ... i realise i wld get 49.125. WAD THE HELL. jus 0.875 and i wld hav passed. grrrrr.
hmm anw. this is wad my remarks is. (part of)
your results show you are capable of distinctions all round, so strive harder next semester and perservere.
i was like... huh? my results lik shit lorh. how do it show tt i'm capable of distinctions? the highest i hav is my hcl... B3 and also the A2 for emaths is fake one. *puzzled. but nvm... i'm not as disillusioned now. i would work harder to get better results and lik wad she said... perservere. perservere. perservere. i wld hav to study damn hard from now on.. cos apparently just by studying hard don't work for me. =/

after getting back my resutls... went to the NSC to do my allergy test. n the test the nurse did for me somehow looks lik chromatography to me... lol. i had lik erm.. at least 30 micro-small metals pasted on my back with masking tape n yes it hurts alil due to the tightness. i bliv the metals inside consist of chemicals to determine whether i'm allergic to them. n the nurse even put some ink marks on my back... really sounds lik chromatography.. LoL. but no i dun tink it is... cos thrs nth travelling up my skin.haha. anw.. i'm sorry if i disgust you..but reali la. its not disgusting. i will only hav some problems within these 48 hrs... other than tt.. i wld be fine.
just hope i cud recover quickly...


regarding wad i thot ytd.. hmm i guessed i don feel any of that animore. at least for now. i've reflected and think thru sensibly. Life don seems so bad now. ( n well..the pain i meant was the cuts on my hand. lol) I feel tt...
wad's actualli the big deal?
in the end... its stil my life. i've to live it myself sooner or later. can't possibly hide and rely on my parents all the time. its my life. in the end... i wld hav to walk it through myself ...wif or w/o them. i have to be independent and mentally strong. i bliv i'm half way thru independence ...but emotionally... i feel after wad ive gone thru these 15 yrs. im able to do it. in fact, apart frm some of my friends... i'm not afraid to be alone. somtimes i really dun mind to be alone. i dun find it scary or intimidating. in a way... i find it good spiritually. u get to think through many stuffs and understand urself better.
for the time being... i will ignore everything/anybody tt makes me unhappy.
Life is still positive and full of hapiness. rmb tt :)
and i do believe tt ...
Acceptance is the solution to most problems. accept it and learn to move on positively.




but well. if ure lik me who gotten bad results. don accept it. work harder .... whaha.



i guess thats all for todae. will hav more to blog on tmr... (hint: more pain to come :(
but anw.. i like blogging. it helps me sort out my thots.. tho i'm still not comfortable sharing my problems wif everybody. hmm.

gtg. buai`