being alive feels painful.












everything. just everything.










` i hate to be here now.
so childish. so noisy.
i yearn for peace







i hate all of them
its them who put me in this predicament
i longed to be free.
longed to be numb
longed to grow up
longed to be independent ... emotionally





but for now. i will pretend to be okay.









i want the world to pretend everything is okay