.

i'm feeling upset now.

nth seems to be right . . . wad has ever been right anyway?

i .. duno how to put tings to words..

i used to feel much better after chating wif frens.

but it dun seems to hav the same effect on me now..

in fact.. i jus feel even heavier..

thr are some things wich i dun wan to kip to myself

and i did try to put things across

but the problems stil arent solve

mayb.. i dunoe how to tell it in a beta way..

but i reali reali dunoe how to say le.

i'm on the point of giving it up to tell animore.

perhaps living with wad it is now wil be the solution.

but sometimes i jus feel that.. i shant be unhappy. i dun nid to.

hais. i m starting to be confused. many things dun appear to be what dey are.

n i belif all the probs tt u had... other ppl are feeling tt oso.

its the matter of how u handle them.. tt differ u frm others.

i dunoe why i keep typing all these ... but i'm currently chating wif a gd fren rite now.

realise we r jus as unhappy... but wif different reasons.

a perfectionista aint easy... wanting to be perfect is even more difficult.

i'm sorry if i said e wrong ting to u todae... i dun meant it to be lik that

i reali don lik to be misunderstood.. but it seems to me tt i'm owas lik tt to u ppl.

a mind of different tinkings. i conclude.

//

if this realy goes on for me.. i dunoe what it will turn lik

either i cant take it animore... or i will jus get used to it. in a manner wich i doesnt wan to.

i dunoe abt myself.

thoughts jus can't seem to be sorted out properly

only time will tell.

i guess . . .

i'm sure u will change. for the better.