I'm tired of life ... when has anith be good for me? no, everything hasnt been okay since the start of the year. im amazed at how insensitive humans can be. how a chain of unfortunate unhappy events can unfold itself so "nicely". so consecutively tt i feel so suffocated, so deprive of my good and cheerful times. im very bothered. perhaps this is how growing up is? and if it is... it totally ruined the perfect image in my mind. the perfect life tt i owas pictured... i sincerely yearn to disappear and start a new life somewhere. i want to be away. away from everyone i knoe. im sickof everything tt i feel like crying

i feel so depressed now. im fed up wif people. im angry at myself.
for fifteen yrs, i felt ive never done anith for myself. nothing at all. maybe tts the root of all. im tired. im tired of putting up a false front and pretend to be okay. im not. cos all the past problems were never solved and it only accumulated to sth worse. its a knot tt can nvr untied. i dunoe till how long can i take it. i feel exasperated. u said tt i can tell u. but wads the use of telling when nothing has been done? u can tell me to ignore... but seriously, how do u ignore feelings? how do u not feel sad when ure truly sad? how do u not feel irritated when ure really piss off? how do u ignore ur feelings? ive tried. and it helps nothing.


Life pretty sucks now. a month ago i thot i wld be very happy when october ends. but no. disappointedly no. there is nothing to look forward to and i feel so darned empty deep down.
i feel so burdened. i hate my cca now. his attitude really turn us off. i hate school now. i dun wan to go for the remedials. i dun wan monday to come. i really need a break. but looking at the things around me.. i dun tink so.



a point of no return