heh... its a miracle ! //
its the first time in so many days i dont get real tired afta coming home frm sch... but well erm. i'm still physically tired.. (wadahellami tokingabt?)
apart frm ytd pe.. todae cca trg add on to my fatigue. eSpecially taking over the sec one orientation... dey are really a handle manz shoo noisy... dunoe y flo n jovi say dey veri quiet. =S
haiz..den i suffered many "injuries" todae... got a cut on my 2nd n fifth finger... den breaking a finger nail.. ouchhhhh n arghhhhh.... stupid stupid days.. or shld i sae horrend0us weekS? grr..
why are dere suddenly so many so-called negative stuffs popping up? n is nowhr lor... damn weird. hope this chain of weird n irritating events stop n0w. yesh n0w. or im going to xplode manz..
tot sec three life wld be Ok..but din't noe it wld be this bAd. >.<
( -- so much for everything --)

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anoda ting tt's in me is tt i've an xtra urge to read up daily horoscopes ... to noe wad is going to happen everyday... (but lik its true lik tt) haix` i dunoe why but i'm curious. curious to noe beforehand wad will happen on tt day... mayb its becos of all the tings tt happening ard me or wat.. i jus wan to noe. ^
but come to think of it... will i really wana go thru a day when i noe wads going to happen? esp when its boring n not-so-gd... ... nah i dunoe. but it will really be freaky if tt happens. haha.

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currently blogging, chatting n finishing my piano theory. i dislike theory/ so tedius.. n i'm bad at remembering.. ( ok xcept bdaes). sianz... its like doing those psle or o lvl books..whr u hav to finished all the different year de paper...
but tmr will going to be sho busy. hahas.
i'm being nostalgic now... i miss alot of things n people. i finally realised how comfortable 2/2 is. i miss my friends. i miss all the normal routine tt i went thru las yr. n i miss sec2 life. its heaven compare to sec3. i miss alot of tings.... altho i said in my prev.prev.prev. posts tt 2oo4 is nt good for me. but i still miss the good things. aRrR. ` n i certainly regret some things. ( n0n0 its not wad u r tinking. how do i noe? cos i jus noe.) its not wad u are tinking. but i do hav slight regrets on some tings.
but i dun see wad a new year means when things dont start anew.. or rather ur memories not being afresh..
+ > u still lingers to unsolved problems
+> u still ponder on ur worries
+> n all ur insecurities still present...
i 'fess up. i'm a very insecure person. + i'm a SIC. greatest fear` lose of security. lol.
the unsure-ness and having to face up to everybody n every situations can be stressful at times. and i hate to be at the losing side. its not e typical type of win or losing. jus the type of unspoken. silent. losing.
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my hopes n wishes are not coming true. perhaps i shld jus abandon them. maybe it will be better. at least i cud stop hoping n getting disappointed when standards of life are not met. maybe my life is destined in this way. mabye maybe mayb...
i used to not bliv in destiiny` i believe tt we are the one who create them.... but judging from how i felt.. i doubt so now. everything jus seemed to be so arranged... no matter how much u do. no matter how much u fight. u still lose.

hais. there are so mani tings tt i can't simply put them in words. and after typing so much of my feelings... i still feel quite empty.
thr's a quote which i forgotten whr i read before... but it goes lik this

you can't have a better tomorrow if you keep thinking about the past all the time


true huh? //

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