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>> i dun feel like waiting animore..<<

Sigh..jus received msg tt thr is monthly shoot tmr.sianz..jus means tt i had to move my tuition back in e afternoon..YaWnz
`i tink i'm juz gonna waste my day away tmr`
tHere are just sooo mani tings to do. yet i'm still lazy enough not to accomplish ani. haizz..if onli none of that happened then..i wun be be it. wadever it is..
Let's see wad i've -. 3 ke biji, n tt english, n maths test, n piano exam, n lit test, n d&t test. Okay i noe all these ain't exactly goin to fall in the same week..but tts my overview for the nxt 2 wks. N 1 of tt is alreadi heaving my heart down. i just feel that i'm juggling too mani tings in my hand..i feel that i dun have the time to do my best in [everything] i had to` so what if i did well in one of it? the rest wld nagged/say/scold/whatever =S at me why i nvr did this` why i never did that` - look wad you've done-
One of it is a basic responsibility of a student [u shld noe wad it is],second is an co-curriculum, third IS ..a form of art.. i feel being pushed in all directions and having to accomplished everything at the same time. how can i do it? not to forget my social life..i'm tired everydae..i knew i wld jus collapse one day when i couldn't bear all this burden/responsibility on me animore. but i'm not weak, i will have to fight for it.
->School work is ever-stressing.I may be lucky this time round but not the 2nd. i knew i'm bad enough.i couldn't slip animore or it wld be gone case b4 i could step out of this sch.
-> i know results matter. i know we have to practice as much as possible.i knowe competitions are tough. i know my standard..but i have alreadi done my best. i did go for every single practice..but do these seemed enuf in their eyes? No.. what more could i do? i dunoe..and wheneva i c those accusation in the eyes i jus couldn't help it..
-> i admit its my fault. i din't did my best compare to the prev 2. in fact i felt guiltly..but since i've alreadi come this far..i wun giv up. haixx i feel that i words just could not explain how i feel..

is this wad i'm supposed to have? being demanded of every ounce of my energy to fuifill the things tt is wanted frm me. i knew partly its my responsbility but i know if this continues..n if one of them gets the better of me..i will have a breakdown soon.
but so what? nobody will understand (as i say again).. aniwae i felt better after typing everything out. If i can't complain to u..at least i could do that to my blog..'

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